Everyone thinks I have everything straight in my life
I don't even have my sexuality straight
Everyone thinks I am so strong
I have never been this weak as I have this past few months and years
Skipping meals
I can't get my hands still or straight enough to hold a fork
Holding everything in like
it's the only hug I will have as a goodbye from a love one that is dying
You haven't seen me cry
I am scared you'll beat the shit out of me
Hiding cuts and bruises
So you don't know how much I hate myself or the battles I have fault
People say they don't want to take me out because I look abused
Getting the word “Anorexic” thrown at my bones
I know what you are thinking
Were they calling her that as a joke
Because she is so far from the body shape of someone you would call that
Can you see her thunder thighs, or the rolls of fat on her stomach
I would pick you up but I would probably drop you, it's not because you fat 😅
Jk you are fat that's why
Getting pushed into to locker because people forget that you exist
Getting called broken because I am Asexual
Getting left in a cold dark corn field because you are a depressed freak
Going to a party wishing you could just go home because you are having a full blown panic attack
Telling people not to touch you
Someone touches you and you feel like monsters are crawling up your skin
Digging into to your bloodstream and you are losing control of your body and all you want is control of something like having control of your own body.
