Collide (Jake Miller Series book 3)

Chapter 4: Homeless

Jake's POV

                It's been 3 days since Amanda broke up with me. I've lost all will to write songs and do anything. Everyone keeps telling me to move on and stuff, but I can't . Amanda and I were supposed to get married. I stare down at her engagement ring in my hand. I can't believe she gave it back.  I pull out my phone and hit speed dial number 2.

RIng…..ring……ring……

Please pick up.

Ring….ring….ring…..*click*

"hel-"

"This is Amanda, sorry I can't get to the phone, leave a message and I'll get back to you." BEEP.

I take a deep breathe before leaving my message.

                "Hey…it's me …..again. Look, I'm really sorry about my label and stuff, but I can't live without you. You know that I love you and I want to be with you more than anything so please please please take me back….or at least call me back please….I miss your voice." I hang up and sigh.

I get up and stretch. Maybe a little fresh air will do me some good. I tuck my phone into my pocket and head out of the studio. As I'm walking down the street I bump into someone.

                "Excuse-" I'm cut off by getting slapped.

                "You are a jerk you know that!" I wince and rub my cheek glaring at my little sister. What is she doing here.

                "Jennifer why are you here?" I ask.

                "You let Amanda get away!" she exclaims placing her hands on her hips.

                "She left me Jennifer!" I say. I really don’t want to have this conversation.

                "Stop being stupid! You are too dense to see Amanda thinks that you don't want her anymore."

                "Of course I want her back…..Without I'm alone and I feel homeless…" I sigh.

                "Then call amanda and tell her that." Jennifer says before walking away.

                "Where are you going?" I ask her.

                "No where." She says as my phone goes off. I pull it out to see Amanda is calling.

                "Thank god you-"

                "What do you want Jake? You have left me 30 voicemails!" Amanda snaps.

                "Just listen to what I have to say…." I plead.

                "Why?" She asks.

                "Because it's important.'

                "5 minutes."

                "Look,

Here I stand in the cold

I tried to knock

‘Cause you changed the locks

Now I’m all alone

Where am I supposed to go?

If you are where my home is

I guess that makes me homeless

So what now? I got no idea where I’m goin

I’m lost with no direction like my GPS is broken

I’m walkin round the streets thinkin bout you every night

I’m feelin homeless now

Lookin like the man from MRI

See I just wanna come back home, can’t do this on my own

You were the only thing I knew for sure, guess that I was wrong

See I’ve tried to walk away but I just end up at your doorstep

Waiting for my phone to ring but nope, you haven’t called yet

So I’m wandering, homelessly

Wish that you stayed with me

Thought that we were meant to be

Felt that you were there for me

But I guess not ‘cus in case you failed to notice

You used to be my home until you left me homeless

Here I stand in the cold

I tried to knock

‘Cause you changed the locks

Now I’m all alone

Where am I supposed to go?

If you are where my home is

I guess that makes me homeless

So what now?

 It used to be just you and me

But you kicked me out, locked the doors and tossed away the keys

Put me outside lookin in,

You would think that I’m just flyin

But I’m a bigger wreck than the Titanic inside

I’m slippin on sidewalks, I’m following street signs

I need some help, I’m feelin stranded, losin my damn mind

I’m blindfolded by you, girl you took everything that I own

I keep callin your phone but all I get is the tone

So I’m lookin up at the stars, these street lights they got me

I never planned on living life without you here right beside me

But guess I was wrong, ‘cus in case you failed to notice

You used to be my home until you left me homeless" I sing. Where did these lyrics come from?

I wait for Amanda to say something.

                "You really feel that way about me?" She asks.

                "Yes, I can't live a day without your love." I say.

                "Fine….you get one more chance." She softly says.

                "Really!?" I grin.

                "Yes, Jake don't make me regret this."

                "You won't I promise!" I have my girl back and that's all that matters to me right now. Forget the label. They can deal. I love Amanda and that's that.