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by lovvsers

by lovvsers

"Kill yourself he doesn't even like you"
"He's just using you"
"He's only dating you to make you feel good about yourself"
"If you killed yourself he wouldn't even notice"
"Slut"
"Whore"
"Ugly bitch"
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I shot up with my breathing heavy, I could hardly breath. I saw Joey sit up and just hug me, he didn't say anything but hugged me. Charles came running in, I was trying to breath but I couldn't. Charles gave me water, I tried drinking it. I couldn't. My heartbeat started slowing down. Tears streaming down my face, am I slowly dying? Joey looked me straight in the eyes and kissed my lips, my breathing went back to normal. I looked at him and ran to the bathroom, I was embarrassed. Did I have another panic attack I haven't had one for years. I slid down the bathroom door, I heard knocks on the door but I ignored it.

It's been 3 hours and I'm still locked in the bathroom, I think they left but I couldn't be sure. I slightly opened the door and looked out, clear. I climbed into bed and fell asleep. My bedroom door was locked so nobody could get in.

CHARLES POV

Joey hasn't spoken or smiled since the panic attack from Vanessa. I was scared and I think I remember mum saying something about her having a panic attack 3 years ago and has never had one since but no she had one before.

VANESSA'S POV

I thought the voices were gone with Joey here, I guess not...

JOEY'S POV

ever since Vanessa's panic attack I couldn't get my mind off what she could do. I felt a tear roll down my face but I quickly wiped it away before Charles saw. I decided to tweet that I wasn't going live today.
Josephbirlem: hey guys not going live today things happen and I'm not in the best mood right now, I'll go live tomorrow 💞😭

VANESSA'S POV

I shot up from my phone dinging, it was a notification from twitter, it read :
Josephbirlem: hey guys not going live today things happen and I'm not in the best mood right now, I'll go live tomorrow 💞😭
Oh no this was all my fault, so I texted him
Vanessa💞 : hey babe go live please your fans need you, do it for me :)
In a matter of seconds I got a reply back, I laughed at how fast he replied
Jojo😍 : babe! I can't go live my eyes are red from crying. Can I see you?
Vanessa💞 : I just want to be alone right now, sorry x
Vanessa💞 : I love you so much but I need time to think, don't get the wrong idea. I didn't do anything harmful I promise x
Jojo😍 : i love you more babe, I understand ❤️
After that I fell back asleep.

JOEY'S POV

"Maybe it was a bad idea coming here" I frowned
"Man don't think of it that way, if you weren't here she could be in hospital" he said rubbing circles on my back.
"True, thanks man" I said
"I'm going to go to bed and you can sleep on the couch if you want" he said taking a blanket out
"Sure" I said take the blanket and throwing it over my body, and slowly falling asleep with tears rolling down my eyes...
The last thing on my mind, Vanessa Gitnick