Prayers For Andrew

Five ~Andrew

 Dad's not home. Thank God.

I was upstairs in my small room, just laying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I was think about the new transferred student. Questions were polluting my mind. What is he like? What kind of music does he listen too?  And most of all:

Is he gay?

I sighed at the thought. I really wanted to know.

The phone rang, pulling me out of my thoughts. I looked over at the caller ID. It was Cassidy. Before anwsering the phone I looked at the time. She normally calls after 9...and it was only 7:32. Something was not right.

I picked up the phone. "Cass? Everything okay?" I heard sniffling on the other side. "Cass. Anwser me damn it." Cassidy was crying, I hardly ever hear her cry. Not since her Dad put down her dog. Cassidy said something barely audible. "You need to speak up." I said, and she spoke a little louder. "I hate men."

"Cassidy what's wrong? Did you and Bill get into a fight again?"

"No."

"Then what?"

"I think I like Jason."

"And what's wrong with that?"

There was silence on the other side for a few moments. "I don't trust men. You know that Andrew. I can't deal with the pain..." Cassidy started to sob. I sighed. "Cassidy, What your uncle did to you was 5 years ago. You need to let go of it. Really, Jason's a nice guy. Why don't you put aside your fears and actually think about talking to him? Besides, you need to expand a little. " Cassidy sniffled again. "Yeah, I know. But, think about it Andrew. I trusted my uncle. And in return he hurts me far worse than I have ever been hurt. My uncle was a 'nice guy' in quote when he really was just a disgusting child abuser."

I shook my head and rolled my eyes. This girl can never let down.

"Cassidy listen. You need to look at the possibilities besides getting hurt, okay? I doubt that Jason will do what your uncle did. He doesn't act like he will. Plus your uncle showed some signs that he does hurt kids."

"I guess your right. But.."

I interuptted her. "No buts, talk to Jason tomorrow. If it makes things better, I'll be with you when you do. Just please promise me to be nice to his friends."

"Fine." I smiled a little, but it fell. I really wanted to tell her what was on my mind. I wanted to pour my heart out to Cassidy. I trusted her as she trusted me. But could I really trust her with my biggest secret?

"Cassidy...I need to tell you something." I started, but it was so soft I didn't think she could hear me.

"Yes? What is it?"

I took a deep breathe as my heart started to pound in my ribcage. I shook my head. "Nothing, never mind." I said with a sigh. I can't tell her. Not now.

"Okay, well hey, Bill is calling me down for dinner. So...I'll call you before your Dad gets home. Later, DrewBear." Click.

I put down the phone, and covered my face with my hands.

God, what's wrong with me? Give me some kind of anwser.