Over The Ocean

Chapter 4 - The meet up

Lily's POV

"You have to tell him!" I say to Kate. She's sitting at the breakfast table. I'm making coffee.

"I know. But how? And what if he doesn't want to help? What if he will pretend he doesn't know who I am! He is a singer. And a lot of people know him. This will be all over the Internet at some point, if I tell him!" She is having one of those anxiety moments. Not quite a panic attack, but it can lead to it.

I give her a glass of water.
"Calm down.  from what you've told, he won't do that. We will figure it out. Did you take your medicine for anxiety?" I ask.

"I can't. I can't take it if I'm pregnant. It will hurt the baby..." She takes a sip of water.

"Okay. We will figure something out. You know there's another option to this..." I turn around a pancake.

"You know I'm against abortions! Please, never suggest it." She sounds really hurt. I don't know what's the deal with that.

"Sorry, sorry. Forget it. Let's just eat." I put the plate of toast on the table.
We slowly eat our breakfast. It's Saturday, late morning and my little sister is pregnant.

I thought I will be the one who becomes pregnant by accident. But I also thought that my parents would still be alive, I guess was wrong again...

Kate's POV

I know Lily's right. I have to tell Avi about the baby. But I don't know how. Should I write an email? Maybe I should call? Skype? Maybe I could write a letter?

I get pretty excited about the idea...I lowkey love cheesy stuff!

It's not that I never wanted kids. It's just I never saw myself as mom... sorry, that was random.

It's September, soon Christmas time will be around, so I could ask him his address and say I want to send a post card. But instead send a letter about the baby. The media won't be able to leak this letter. That way if he wants he can never respond. Or maybe it will get lost in the way and he will never know, no one can blame me for not telling him.

I get my phone and ask Avi his address. I hope he responds. Then I start the letter.

I write about the fun time we had, how we are so similar and not those people who would expect things like this to happen. Then I tell the truth and all my worries. About media, the fear that he won't want it and everything else.

I always feel like he listens and understands when I talk about anything and I don't have to explain it in facts like with my sister.

Avi responds:
"Sure! Here's my address (in the picture). Can you send me your address? Just in case :)"

I smile, he's so sweet. I send him my address and take the opened envelope with the letter. There's just one thing I need to add.

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"Are you ready, Kate?" The doctor asks. She looks friendly and holding my sister's hand I feel calm.

"Yes." I smile.
Nurse puts blue, cold gel on my tummy. It's not quite showing yet, well, it's just barely 2 months so, no wonder. The doctor starts the ultrasound.

"Here is the baby!" She points at the screen.
"It looks healthy. A little small, but it's nothing." She smile.

"We were small when we were born. It's genetic." I say.

"Can you tell what it is?" My sister asks.

"Not yet, it's still too small, but I think the next ultrasound will reveal it." The doctor smiles.

"Do you want a picture of the baby?" Nurse asks.

"Yes please. Two if you don't mind." I blush.

We get to the register and pick a date for the next ultrasound. They give me the pictures. We walk to our car.

"Can we go the the grocery store? We need some food." I ask. We sit in the car and sing along the songs on the radio.

"Now the new "Pentatonix" single "Hallelujah"."

We both go silent. It's an awkward, little sad moment before we stop at the market.

It's next to the post office so it's perfect.
"I'll be right back." I say and go the there. Lily goes for food.

"Here goes nothing." I put the ultrasound in the envelope and put it in the post box.

Then I go the find Lily. We get some snacks and some healthy stuff too. She looks at the baby clothes, but I'm not ready for that.
Today I feel a little bit better and before the sleep I catch myself ribbing my belly.

I giggle and drift to sleep.

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It's December.

I don't know if Avi got the letter. We still talked on Facebook, but it didn't look like he knew. Maybe it did get lost in the way. It made me kinda sad.

I always imagine things too fast, so even though I tried not to, because I haven't known Avi that well and he never asked me to be his, I started to imagine the beautiful life we will have when the baby comes. We would live together in a small house and raise the child in loving family. Get married and all that.

But I'm not sure what to expect from Avi. We've met just once.

But today all I can think about is the baby. It's the 21st of December and the last ultrasound before holidays. We will finally know if it's a boy or a girl.

The snow is snowing outside and it's really beautiful. We still have a few hours till the appointment. Lily is watching TV and I'm baking cookies. She has never been a baker.

"We should get ready. It's four. The appointment is at five." Lily walks in the kitchen and takes one cookie.

"Okay I'm just finishing up." I smile. My tummy is finally showing a bit. I'm not glad that all our neighbors now talks about me, but I feel more happy and free with this life inside me.

I change my clothes. I put on black mommy jeans so it won't hurt the baby. And just plain white sweater. It's warm and cozy. I go downstairs and put on my boots, look into the mirror and check the time. Lily is till upstairs.

*knock, knock, knock*

It's already dark, and all our neighbors are old, they don't go outside in the dark. But I don't think it's anyone I don't know, so I open the door without thinking.

And almost faint.
"A...Avi!?"

There he stands. His suitcase next to him, covered in small layer of snow. Looks like he has stood there building courage to knock. My heart lights up and my stomach fills with butterflies. The baby starts moving.

"Hey!" He shyly smiles and looks down.