Collection Of My Thoughts

Almost A Year

It's been almost a year.

Almost a year since you last smiled.
Since you last spoke.
Since you last laughed.
Since you made someone else laugh.

Since you took your last breath.

I remember your laugh.
I remember your smile.
I remember your eyes.
I remember your voice.

None of which I'll ever experience again.

I'll never get the joy of sitting on your ranch
Eating chocolate almonds
Playing cards
Talking about your horses and dogs

I'll never get the joy of Christmas parties
Having lunch with you
Your hilarious jokes

You never failed to crack me up

I still remember hearing you were gone
I was watching Supernatural.
My dad waited until the episode was over to tell me.
I sat there for a few minutes
Then I went to my room to get ready for bed
I cried
I cried so much
You were my best friend
Sure you didn't remember me much
But I remembered you

I remember going to the funeral
It was extremely depressing
Seeing your casket get lowered
Hearing your wife crying as people read stories
Watching as your son and daughters watched their father buried.

It's been almost a year since you left us.
I missed you a lot at first.
I miss you even more now.

I love you grandpa.
I miss you grandpa.