Collection Of My Thoughts

First Slam Poem

Don't judge me, this is my very  slam poem. It might be really bad. Tell me your opinion on it please.

I feel the fear filling my body

I start shaking as I leave my house

I don't want to leave

But I know I must

I know I have to

My family says it's okay

My friends tell me everything is good

Everyone says I don't need to worry

Why are you so shaky, they ask

I don't understand, why are you crying

It's just people

Just other people we know

To you, It's just people

Just people who you aren't concerned about

To me they can end my world

One look at me and I feel scared

My breathing begins to go uneven

My heart begins to pound so hard I feel as if everyone can hear it

My palms start getting clammy

I begin to lose my breath

I begin to feel as if I am dying

Amongst all these people, I am the only one being like this

Everyone says it's easy to be in public

They say it's easy to talk to anyone

They don't understand the fear

The fear that everyone is judging you

The fear that everyone hates you

The dread of attracting any and all unwanted attention

I try to stay as quiet as possible, as to not attract that attention

But, you bring the attention

You talk loudly

You yell

You do everything to get the attention

And it works

They say I'm just being dumb

They say I shouldn't be so scared

They say they can help

They don't understand

No one can help

Nothing can help

I'll always have this

From the day it started

To the day I die

I'll always be like this