Kept to Myself (Bucky x Reader)

Chapter Eight: It Never Ends

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Bucky's POV

"He... he's hurting me..." Y/n whispers with tears drenching her face. Charlotte and I share a saddened and panicked expression. Y/n looks like she's going to have a complete breakdown.

"He kept doing it... over and over... I couldn't stop him..." She sobs. I notice her fists are clenching tightly to the chair, making her knuckles white.

"Y/n, you don't have to continue if it's too much..." Charlotte whispers softly, trying to comfort her. Y/n's eyes shut tightly, but she keeps going.

"I... I had no choice... He would've hurt us again if I didn't... I had to make them stronger..."

"You had to make who stronger?" Charlotte pushes.

"The other test subjects... he told me that they needed to be like me... they needed to be trained as weapons..."

"Can you tell us who he is?" I ask cautiously, laying my hand on one of hers.

"The man without a face... he watched over us... he hurt me if I disobeyed... he... he..." Y/n starts to tremble. I snap my head back to Charlotte, not knowing what to do.

"M-maybe we can continue this another time, alright? You've had a busy day so far... Go and get some rest, Y/n..." She says as she starts typing on one of those clear computer screens on the wall. I have a feeling she's telling Tony what happened.

I help Y/n out of her seat, wrapping an arm around her waist to support her. She's weak in the legs, and she needs to get out of here.

"Thank you, Charlotte. We'll see you later." I say to our therapist before exiting the room.

Y/n's breathing has picked up and is becoming irregular. I stop after a little of slow walking and direct her to the wall. I hold her shoulders and try to comfort her and calm her down.

"Shh... Y/n it's okay. He can't get you anymore. You're safe here." I pull her closer to me and wrap my arms fully around her. Her sobs become more quiet, but she's still shaky.

"It's alright. I'm going to protect you..." I whisper, resting my chin on her head. She seems to calm down as she nuzzles into my chest. Her small hands hold my sleeves tightly.

"Just focus on breathing, okay? Ready? Inhale, and exhale." I instruct her to follow me. She tries to do as I say.

Inhale.

Exhale.

"You're doing great. Just inhale, and exhale."

Inhale.

Exhale.

Y/n's finally calmed down, but her eyes are still wet with tears. I lift my chin from her head and look down at her. Her face is still buried in my chest, clutching onto me as if her life depended on it. I slowly move my hand to her face, cupping her cheek. I force her to look up at me, but when she does my heart nearly breaks into a million pieces.

She has the same look of despair I had before. I slip my other hand into her other cheek and stroke her soft skin with my thumbs.

"Everything's okay, Y/n. I'm going to protect you. I'll always be here for you." I whisper as I stare deep into her glowing e/c orbs.

"Thank you..." Y/n breathes out, closing her eyes. She sinks into my hands as if she's desperate for me to keep her up.

She seems exhausted again. I need to get her to her room where she can rest. I slowly remove my hands from her face, but she doesn't open her eyes. They're more peacefully closed now. I'm thankful for that.

I scoop her up in my arms as if she's nothing, holding her close to me. I feel her press herself to my chest, listening to my heartbeat. This seems to calm Y/n, so I just smile.

Some people have come down the hallway to just stop and stare. Steve and Tony are holding people back to prevent any interventions. They both know that I'm the one who needs to help Y/n now. I'm her only hope...

I gently start to stride down the hallway as people move to the side. They're all just watching me, but I don't care. All I care about now is Y/n.

Eventually, I make it to her room. Friday automatically opens the door for me, again, so I walk inside without moving Y/n in my arms. I lower her to the bed, but her small hands keep holding tight to my sleeves. I don't want to let go of her, and she seems to not want to let go of me.

Y/n's eyes are still closed, but I can tell she's awake still. She can hear me and sense my movements. Kneeling down on the side of her bed, I rub her arms gingerly.

"Please... stay here... with me..." Y/n whispers, almost begging. My heart instantly turns into putty. How could I possibly say 'no'.

"Of course." I sigh back contently. She lets go of my sleeves, allowing me to move again. I get up from my kneeling position and hover over her little form for a second. I just take all of her in. Her now soft face draws me in closer.

Slowly, I lay next to her. She instantly gravitates to me, nuzzling herself into my chest once again. I wrap my arms around her in a comforting embrace before speaking again.

"I will never leave your side." The words flowed out of my mouth unconsciously. They surprised me, really. I never knew I had the capacity to say something like that and mean it so sincerely.

We stay like this for what feels like an eternity, but I feel safe with her in my arms. I can only hope she feels the same way. I closed my eyes a while ago, but I was nearly dozing off when Y/n started to whisper something. I couldn't understand what she said, though.

"Hmh?" I grunt, hoping she would say it again.

"I never thought I'd feel this way..." She repeats. "You've shown me such... kindness... that I never knew was possible."

"It's exactly what you deserve." I say back to her.

"I've only known pain and suffering... I've only been treated as a weapon... but you treat me like I'm human..." I can sense the tears forming in her eyes.

"Shh... shh... please don't cry..." I whisper, pulling her closer to me.

"I'm not crying of sadness..."

My breath gets caught in my throat. My heart skips a beat. I feel as if I might burst.

"Thank you... thank you..." Y/n keeps whispering softly as we both lay in each other's arms. Slowly, her words get more quiet until she finally falls asleep. Not long after, I join her.

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