Random Me

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Hey everyone, today I'm coming to you with something more of a sensitive subject. One... That can really effect some people, I'm not sure who, but eh.

Watch this video:

Alright, now that you've either ignored it, seen it already, or just watched it, we may now begin this conversation.

As a kid, I moved a lot. Not far from the area, but to the point where I had to change schools.
I went to many different schools, and the thing is, I had to leave many people behind, many people that I have really cared about over time.
For example, we have kgm0727/kgmichael0727, my old bestie in grade school. We did many things together. Went swimming, go to each other's houses, had sleep overs. We were close, we were happy. Only... I started to pack my things, ready to move someplace.
On my final day, I remember going to her house, hugging her one last time. We exchanged something for each of us to remember each other by. I told her we would see each other again, and, I really hoped it would have.
My mom ended up moving unexpectedly, and I had to move in with my dad. I was stuck going to a new school, being the new student.
That's where I met Smartdogie, my other bestie.
Now we, we did amazing things together. I still remember how we met, or at least started to get to know each other. It was all because of some crayons. Crayons brought two young girls together, making them best friends.
I would go over to her house and jump on the trampoline, live action roleplay, draw, play dolls, etc.
So many things we did, she introduced me to the online world of roleplay, art, online friends. I really thank her for that. Without her, I wouldn't be the same person I am today, more likely not even on Wattpad. I'd be one of those girls I usually are all dressed up and their faces painted with make up.
I didn't turn out that way however. I turned into someone who was very cheerful, dressed up like a total dork, never really uses "slang".
I'm glad I'm the person I am right now, I can't imagine myself any other way, okay I can, but you get my point.
We were close friends, until I decided to move back in with my mom once she returned.
So that meant I had to leave yet another friend, another friend that was so dear to me.
Once I was in Walmart, when I saw her dad coming out from the bathroom area. I went up to him and said hi, I told him to tell Jess everything, and he did.
I know what her reaction was, but I'm not sure if she wants me to add it in or not, so I'm just not going to even say it, for her sake.
I was pretty upset that I would be leaving her, but I was blinded as well by my happiness with being with my mother again.
Once I got into middle school, Kylie's school and mine got to get mixed into that school.
I was so happy to see all the familiar faces. I wasn't the new kid, I new already half of my grade.
I kept in contact with Jess as all this was happening, I still am. We talk often, and so do I with all my other friends.
Now, I have one last friend to mention. This is charizard4life21. Now us two, we have each other's back. We will protect each other, help each other, talk, draw, etc.

I'm slowly realizing I have many friends that are close, as I consider my best friends. Each of them matter so much to me, and I will never side one over the other. I love them each equally, and I'm glad to have each of them in my heart.

One thing thought is going to shatter it all though. I'm going to be soon moving to a new state, leaving each of them behind. I'm scared, I'm scared of loosing contact with them, scared of slowly drifting away from their lives. I will no longer matter in their everyday life, and I'll be trying to make myself new friends. We might stay in contact over the Internet, but it pains to have the feeling of not seeing them face to face for a really long time. You will no longer be the one they will depend on, give them hugs when they are down, comfort them in any physical way. All you could do is begin your new life.
Yet, as Dom said in the video, even if you do drift away from people that might have really mattered to you, at least you enjoyed the experience.

Guys, I'm glad to have been your friend. Really, without you guys, I wouldn't be who I am today. Maybe some day each of you would meet? Maybe... I'm sorry this was so sad, but I needed to get this off my chest. When I do go, and before I do, just know... I love each of you guys, as a friend, a best friend. Thank you for helping me when I was down, thank you for being my friend, thank you for mattering to me, thank you. Words can't really express how happy I am, to have you each as my friend. I'm sad to be moving, our friendship won't be the same after, but just remember all that I've said here. You all matter to me, and I am really hating the fact I'll be leaving you guys. If I really don't end up moving, well, I'm glad to be with you all still.

And thank you as well to my online friends, like Merkimoo for example. Thanks for being my friend and understanding me. I love being part of your weird conversations, and just being part of your life. I still can't wait until our series can begin~!

Have I told you guys about my night sky addiction? I recently changed my lockscreen to the night sky, and "The Alien War" has the cover of a purple sky with stars~! I for some reason love to just look outside and get lost in my thoughts, I think it helps keep in some insanity- XD

Anyways, I should really go now, I've said a lot in this chapter, and it might be a bit too much. Welp, thanks for reading, and I'll see you, in the next chapter... Bub-bye! ^^/