7:49 p.m.
jae bby
hyung ?? can we talk
7:49 p.m.
jae bby
ure probably still at work but
7:49 p.m.
jae bby
i'm just gonna tell u anyw
7:52 p.m.
jae bby
hyung u've been acting weird ;; like distant and idk wtf is up with u leaving me on seen ,, and nowadays u give me one word answers and it's killing me ,, idk if i said or did anyth that might have upset u ,, but u know that i'll admit my mistake if it's my fault and that u shouldn't hide things like that from me ??
7:53 p.m.
jae bby
i miss u ,, like the u who i'd tell everything to. before i loved u and before u loved me.
7:53 p.m.
jae bby
i hate jumping to conclusions and u know that and i don't want to think u have someone else ,, bc as far as i'm concerned i know u love me and u'd never do anyth to hurt me ,, but jaebum-hyung ,, i've been hurting alone and i just want to know what's wrong
7:54 p.m.
jae bby
pls hyung ,, tell me why've u changed and why must u do this to me ,, i'm hurting so much and i'm convincing myself to stay with u and leave u
7:54 p.m.
jae bby
i miss u and i love u a lot ,, but i just don't feel ur love anymore and i feel like ur replies to my texts are just forced and they all sound hesitant and it's as if ure hiding sth. at least if it's personal just tell me ,,
7:55 p.m.
jae bby
assure me ure mine and i'm urs and that no one is going to come between us and build walls to separate the both of us and live the rest of our lives giving each other the silent treatment
7:55 p.m.
jae bby
i don't feel safe around u there's always sth at the back of my mind that's doubting ur feelings and i just want to be close and never let go
7:56 p.m.
jae bby
but ure so cold hyung ,, and it's as if our relationship suddenly tore into two and there's nth we both can do to fix it ;; ure not trying to help and i'm just a wreck at home constantly waiting for u
7:56 p.m.
jae bby
i miss you. i miss you, im jaebum.
7:56 p.m.
jae bby
i really do.
7:57 p.m.
jae bby
but if the both of us are struggling to stay afloat, if we can't strengthen this relationship and we just end up making empty promises to try to persuade each other that we're alright and that we're both going to stay strong ;;
7:58 p.m.
jae bby
if i can't look at you the same way i did, if i can't kiss you whenever i want to, if i can't hold your hand when i fall asleep, if i can't wake up in your arms ;;
7:58 p.m.
jae bby
if we love each other for the sake of being in love ;;
7:59 p.m.
jae bby
please. please let me go.
7:59 p.m.
jae bby
i can't do this anymore. i can't force myself to love you anymore. i can't keep on lying to you.
7:59 p.m.
jae bby
i love you. but i don't love you.
8:00 p.m.
jae bby
pretending to love you is hurting both you and me. i'm sorry, jaebum-hyung. for all the times i've looked at you and told you that i'm in love with you, for all the times i held your hand and stayed in your embrace, for all the times i've kissed you and listened to your heartbeat.
8:00 p.m.
jae bby
for all the times i was yours and you were mine.
8:01 p.m.
jae bby
just please leave me alone for now. i'll talk to you again when i'm over this entire episode and completely over the fact that i'm leaving you heartbroken.
8:01 p.m.
jae bby
i love you, im jaebum. as a friend or more than that, it doesn't matter. i love you, and that's pretty much all i know.
8:02 p.m.
jae bby
let's just remain friends for now.
11:08 p.m.
jae? jae, are you there?
11:08 p.m.
jae holy fuck listen to me ,, i didn't mean to make you feel like this ohmygod baby i'm sorry i didn't know you were hiding this from me
11:08 p.m.
don't leave me like this ??
11:09 p.m.
but you
11:09 p.m.
you've lied to me all this while?
11:09 p.m.
you've never had feelings for me?
11:09 p.m.
never loved me the way i loved you?
11:10 p.m.
aren't you just hurting yourself? you forced yourself to love me because you can't bear to see me falling for you harder each and everyday, and not being able to return the love to me?
11:10 p.m.
you're a fucking idiot, choi youngjae.
11:11 p.m.
i hope you're happy. at this one minute, i truly wish and hope that you'll be better off without me.
11:11 p.m.
i'll explain myself when you get over it. just, i promise you i had no else and i was only yours.
11:11 p.m.
i love you, choi youngjae. i always will.
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lmao what would yall do if i just ended it here like bOoM
i think this book is ending soon guys !! probs until chap 50/55 ,, but idk yet lololol i alr told yall nth in this book is planned i lit just go with the flow and come up with random ideas when im writing the chap like idefgi
for hwahyuk shippers!!
im writing a hwahyuk fic after imessage ends ;; its gonna be a spin-off from imessage so like ,, get hyped ?? im probs gonna leave hwahyuk hanging when imessage ends ,, so their story is gonna be continued in the minhyuk fic :')
OMG ALSO THANK U FOR 10K HOLY SHIT ILY
vote and comment and suffer idk
- syif xox
