Incoherent

0.38 - Goodbye

I was leaving today.

I didn't have many things packed up and saved from my time being here, but the memories are something I could never forget even if I tried.

"Lilly..." Loraine mumbled, tears prickling in her eyes. "I don't want you to go." She suddenly threw her arms around me and held me in a hug. To my surprise, the twins joined in.

"We're gonna miss you..." Jordan mumbled into my hair. It was brushed and washed, and I was dressed in the usual light jeans and the same yellow top that I came into this place with.

"Come visit us on Friday's, yeah?" George smiled at me and I could tell his eyes were glossing over as well. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah... I will." I moved and gave him a big hug, smiling sadly into his chest.

There's something so strange about the people you meet in your life time. I never in a million years would think that a couple of teenagers ( some murderers too ) could become your best friends. A part of me doesn't want to leave to be honest. But a bigger part of me knows I could never live my life here like they are.

I'm lucky I get to leave, I shouldn't be wanting to stay.

A small sniffle pulls me out of my thoughts and I turn to see a crying Loraine looking up at Michael.

"..I don't have any girl friends Mikey.." I could hear her whispering. "When she's gone I won't have any girl friends anymore.."

My heart ached and I moved over to her. "Loraine," I said softly. She turned to look at me and pulled on a brave smile. "I'm not going to leave you forever. I'll come visit and I'll send you all gifts and treats." I smiled and tucked some of her hair out of her face. "You'll be just fine without me."

She sniffled again and nodded, smiling a bit wider as she pulled me into a hug. She moved away and then I stood face to face with the one person who wasn't crying, and the one person who didn't seem heart broken.

"Bye Michael," I whispered, smiling up at him.

He looked down at me and smiled a bit. "Goodbye Lilly."

He surprised me by pulling me into a hug. A really tight one too. Something about hugging Michael made something inside me click.

I was going to miss these guys. A lot.

"Michael I'm so sorry..." I whispered. "I'm sorry that you have to stay here and I'm sorry that you can't ever leave." I shook my head and now tears began to fall from my own eyes.

"Lilly.." he began, but I cut him off.

"No don't, this isn't fair.." I pulled away and laughed, but it was a broken one. "You, Loraine, the twins, you guys don't deserve to be cooped up in here. I'm going to be free again and you guys... you deserve so much more."

George smiled sadly at me and Jordan gave his twin a side hug. Loraine then hugged on the other side of George, and I saw Michael snake his arm around Loraine.

"We might be stuck here forever," George said "But that doesn't mean we aren't happy."

They all smiled and nodded in agreement, and finally I joined in on a last group hug.

I don't know how long we were there, hugging and saying our final goodbyes, but when my mother's voice rung in my ears, it one felt like seconds.

They all smiled and waved, pulling away from me as they remained holding and hugging one another. There was something so strong and beautiful about their friendship that made me want to stay. They themselves were enough to make me want to stay.

But it was my time to go and we all knew it.

So I waved goodbye, hugged each of them one last time, got in my mom's car, and it was over.

We were gone.

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Happy belated Thanksgiving and happy Black Friday you guys.

Thankful for all of you xx

Love the whole lot of you,

Mercay