I gaze at my reflection expecting to see
what people see
In the end all I see is me,
Every flaw, every flaw, everything no one else sees
Everyone sees what they want to see
An image of the person they hope or expect me to be
But that's not me
The real me is not scared to tell you to fuck off
The real me is not scared to be alone
The real me embraces all of me all the good and bad and unnoticed parts
The real me is the me no one else sees
The stage me is the proper funny girl that everyone wants to be around
The one that's always strong for people who don't deserve
The one that's always there when everyone need them
The one that faces many problems alone whether out of fear of being exposed or becoming attached
The one that keeps an arms length around everyone
I gaze at myself and find myself in a warped haze
A conflicting vision between who I see and who I am
Two complete opposites that somehow merge into one
The haze lifts as I realize that I am a person who is in control of their own life
A person with a choice
A person who plays the fool to fool the fool
A person who sees reality but chooses to live in a fantasy land
