WORDS THAT MODEL OUR LOVE INTO LIFE. When You Not Here To Touch

Only in my head

Only in my head babe are you still with me
In my head the memories still live
Only in my head, you still are the same chick
I still enjoy your giggling

What is genuine
PrettyUgly is genuine
You were mean but when i got you to smile it was genuine

Seeing you for the very first time
I couldn't sit still
It grew a desire in me
Like that first time smoking Heroine

Bad, ain't bad without good existing
Darkness is a display of what light is
But my love was never a reflection of what you did
Thats why I kept my eyes closed and let you hurt me

My first love had just left my life
Maybe I just needed somebody to wrap around
Yet it became a bondage, more than it was a bond,
A bandage, as messy as it gets, once it's part of your flesh, it's so painful to detach

Maybe that's because at one point, i thought living life without you in it was a mis-match
You were that one thing my life missed and now that you were in it, my whole life finally made sense

Every cent in my pocket, I was willing to spend
The first chick, I've ever taken out to a proper restaurant
Wimpy, spur, i would have taken you anywhere
Saving and working with a friend, Moses just so the cash was enough to spend a day with you in it

Yet I wonder if you ever spent a day thinking about me
Because I realised I was the only one with a magnetic field
Were you ever attracted to me?

Let's take it back
When I thought I had the sweetest love
In that hall way, with dog pup everywhere
My favourite memory, when it was just me and you, sad how I have to take it that far back

Ever since that, I've heard rumours about you
That I denied to be true
Maybe I was the one in denial all this time
Maybe, if any, there wasn't much love on your part

Ask the people that are genuine to me
They'll tell you what I felt for you was genuine thing
Maybe there is someone genuine to you
Tell them about everything i did and ask if they love you as much as I do

The little things I did for you
Meant more to me, than buying you a car
And a crib to live in
Because i did think that day would one day come true

Because I used to think about the beauty of making kids with you
Now I question if I ever want to sleep in the same bedsheets with you

Not that I've developed hate for you
We most afraid of what we don't know
And I don't think you'll ever let me into that door I've knocked, ever since I met you

Then I start to wonder if I was you, i was in love with
Maybe I was in love with how your giggles gave me a picture of what heaven is
And how your smile reflected joy in any scene

I met a couple of people in my life I didn't really need
But they say everything happens for a reason, Maybe you were here to teach me that love isn't always a mutual thing, what did you learn from me?

Because I've been taking pills of the perseption that you love me
When all I want was for you to be happy
Maybe we both had a sickness we needed to be healed

Because you no longer mean
You smile back at people, even more than you smile back at me
And I'm no longer addicted to the concept of being- in love

I was completely yours
You were never mine
You were my perfect shoe size
But the shoe wasn't mine

I used think she was out my league
After sometime, I had a change in opinion
A soft spot, so I kept treating you like queen
But i'm king, that's why I have to leave

You never know how many times you fall in love
I've already fallen in love twice now
What if it is the very last time
What if you were the one, so I still get that little desire of wanting you save us

Your smile, your giggles
Those times it was just you and I
Only in my head can i still press rewind
Only in my head babe things between us are still fine

No regrets
But the first time I met you, I just wanted to be friends
Only in my head we can still be good friends