Fake Smile

boy problems

William is current boyfriend he is tall and farely cute at first everything was good until I felt pressured to do things I tried breaking up with him but he started drinking smoking cutting my mom kept saying to bring him back I felt pressured so I'm with him now he decided to move to New York but he kept talking about the future and I am 14 he is
16 I don't need to worry about that yet all I want all I ever wanted is too feel alive and like if I belong I don't feel like that when im with him I feel caged and forced.

Juan is someone I talk to when im drunk I guess I might have said I love him but I don't he's cute and short I will give him that but he's not my type.

Brandon is a friend in the group he's short adorable but out of no where he asked me out and I ignored him but he keeps telling me he likes me and gets annoying 

Jason he's a guy I met online till I realized he goes to the same school david goes to and shit im screwed david was a friend who i kissed but that was along time ago he tried asking me out but he buggs too much ab=nd it drove me nuts but none of that matters now i dont like him so whats the point stressing maybe because he said he was going to kiss me and i dont want him to kiss me because if i dont have a thing for someone i will not care if that person kisses me.