Fake Smile

good day

 the next day at lunch i was o my way to my favorite spot after all the noul shit my mom put mr threw and  all the problems i had with my friends all i wanted is too cool off and get out of my head so i reached out for a blade to focus on the blood that i drip out and as soon as i grabbed it carlos came and said hi after that we he was taking me to my favorite place to sit and we began talking about the day and our life it made me feel much better it was a strange feeling while i was talking to him i felt warm and kept smiling i hope i wasnt blushing we laughed i think i was starting to fall for him my mind keeps telling mr to dont dont fall in love but my heart cant resist i came to realized i like him i really really like him but i cant say shit 

carlos " you ok u froze there "

me"ya im fine "

carlos "i know that look you can tell me if you want and if you dont want to talk its fine to i wont force you

this is ligit too too  much i stopped listening at i wont force you yup its official i like him probably even love him he has to be mine but i cant do anything cuz m a pussy to tell my feelings and the problems i have with brandon there is no time for this but part of me is tempted 

me" no its ok im fine "

carlos " alright "

the bellrings to go to class

carlos "was that the bell "

me "ya "

carlos " who do you have?"

me " science "

carlos "oh fuck it lets go ah no wait my ex is there ,oh well"

me" you dont have to come"

carlos shruggs i say well i got to go to class now you should to we hug goodbye and he leaves to classs. after that day i felt happy no exited every since my babysister noemi was taken. i llove my mom but she can be a pain in the ass she always gets on my nerve and i was sick of it i really was.but ik she does things for my best.