DID I EVER mean more to you than a distraction?
DID I EVER really make you genuinely smile or was that fake too?
DID I EVER make your heart beat rapidly like you claimed or was that another one of your personal illusions?
DID I EVER look like anythi...
I mentally scowl as I see Justina had renovated our room yet again.It was a soft maroon color ..it was also had a flashy effect and I had to squint to see clearly.Justina was a busy body and sometimes I felt like she was moving too fast without me ...that scared me. She was familiar and breathtaking but there was times I did a double take and question if I was really happy?
There was times I felt like a dog on dog on a leash and she was my mistress but then there was the sweet moments like the times she would kiss my eye lids when she thought I was asleep or the way her eyes shined as she gazed at me as if I was a charming prince ready to take her away from the big bad dragon.
Gaps and distance add that to the equation that was our relationship with love,controll- ong and sweet moments you have a whole fury of emotions. That's what we were furies of emotion it was like a ride or die situation that you can't help but love yet hate at the same time.
I feel hands wrap around my waist before I hear her "Hey baby"Justina says kissing the back of my neck before I turn around and face her.
"Hi Ina how was the meeting with your Dad?"I say embracing her tightly worriedly waiting for her response.
"It was um okay we didn't discuss about...herbut we did visit Evan today"She murmurs into my neck holding onto me tight.
"It will all be okay" I promise even though I didn't believe them myself as I said them...
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I waked up to Justina's screaming ,yelling begging almost for herto stop.She was clawing at her own self unaware of anything but the sleep induced nightmare.
I cradled her close to my chest rocking her back and forth till her ice cold blue eyes pierced the dark room contrasting against the darkness of it all.
" I can't do this ...I can't do this she- I can't I want Evan Ashew" She whispered hoarsely.Her eyes were darting back and forth.. She looked insane which many would say she is.
"Shh your gonna be fine" I say gazing at her tear stained face reaching for her prescription bottle on my nightstand as if it was a habit(which it was).
I offer her the tablet watching as it went down her throat. See I wasn't attracted to her cause of her beauty (yeah it was a factor) but it was her past.It was the pain that swirled deep in those irises that I knew my medical expertise couldn't help but yet here I am.
I held her as she stopped thrashing.I held her as her tears dried .I held her as her eyes drooped as she drifted off.I held her even though I could be holding someone else because I knew she needed me more ...because I knew no matter how fast she moved she will always be chained down by her past and it seems that I'm the only one who could help with that.
