DID I EVER

Prologue

Prologue

   "What if he changes his mind mom?What if his feelings change?"I say biting my lip nervously my eyes meeting my moms in the mirror as the hairstylist curls my hair.

  "I can't predict the future honey but I know he loves you and you love him its just pre wedding jitters now come on take a deep breath with me"She says in a soothing voice breathing in and out as if I forgot how to breath.

  Despite all my mother's insists I still had this knot in my stomach.
It wasn't that I wasn't ready to marry him because I was -I was more then ready.I didn't lack any love for him but did he lack any for me?

  I sigh rubbing my temples.
Thank god I wasn't wearing any make up cause I would have messed it up by one rub.I close my eyes counting silently in my head.The door opens forcefully
so much so that it hits the wall
making the room vibrate at the
sound. I look up to see Hadley.

  "The makeup artist canceled and now the wedding is gonna be behind schedule since the guest have already started arriving"
She says hurriedly smoothing out her bridesmaids dress frantically.

    "But we paid her 2,000 dollars ahead of time and that's only for travel cost"I say frowning deeply at my best friend tapping my freshly manicured hands against
the smooth glassy surface of the marble table.

     "Well she thought having a baby was more important"She says rummaging through her handbag.

     "What?I wasn't aware she was pregnant!How could she not tell me?"My eyes widening at the fact that I didn't know.

   "I would love to stay and dote on the fact but you have to be walking down the aisle in less then five minutes and you don't have a lick of make up on"She say scattering a bunch of makeup on the pristine marble table.

    "Are you sure you can do this?I mean your a movie make up artist for zombies"I say chewing on my bottom lip nervously.

  "I didn't go to college for nothing girl"She says waving her hand dismissively as she put on a apron so her dress won't get damaged.

   "Ok"I say simply leaning against the studio chair.

    The music starts as I stare at the white doors trying to convince myself that this isn't a dream.That years of seeing my friends get married and start families it was finally my turn.
My turn at the stable happy life.

    The door opens as a wide smile takes over my face.I walk down the aisle meeting Ashew's eyes.At this instant I knew I loved this man more then I loved myself.I knew that I was putty in his hands and I would do anything to make him happy.

   As I reached the end of the aisle I couldn't stop myself from kissing his lip and whispering "I love you" in his ear.I faced him with as a small smile graced his face but it quickly dropped.I sent a look of question at him as the
pastors velvet voice drifted into
the air.

     "If anyone has a reason that these two should not be wed speak now or forever hold your peace"The pastor yells over the excited murmurs and squeals.

  I didn't expect any objections.

  I didn't think there would be any objections.

   Especially not from the groom himself.

    "I object"His raspy smooth voice screams into the air causing the room to uproar as my eyes snaps to him in horror.

  "I'm sorry Kennedy I'm really am but I still love Justina I'm sorry for leading you on and I didn't mean for it to get this far"He says taking my clasps hands and leaving a light airy kiss on the back of my palms.

   "I know you'll forgive me one day"He says staring into my eyes once more before turning abruptly and walking down the aisle ...walking away from me.

   And as my delicate fingers goes to where my frail heart resides I can only think one thing.

'DID I EVER mean anything to him?'