Paper thin [Zayn Malik Anorexia FF]

Perrie was the first one to notice. It was summer, very hot and the guys had just come back from America to take a short summer break from their tour. Niall, Harry, Louis and Liam were in the pool while her and Zayn were sitting under the shadow of a tree to get some rest from the hot sun. It was at least 30°C today and only spending a few minutes in the sun caused a sunburn, so it was better to stay in the shade. Zayn was smoking, as he did a lot lately, and Perrie was sitting next to him even though she hated to smell of smoke on his or her clothes. She watched him inhale the smoke and blow it out again where it disappeared in the air. Her view wandered over his body which looked different, thinner. “Have you lost weight Baby?” she asked interrupting Zayns thoughts. “What?”, he responded a little shocked at her question.”...Yeah maybe a little”, he answered looking at his body before his eyes met Perries “We had a lot stress during the tour you know? All the interviews and concerts and everything...” He sounded a lot calmer than he actually was, because yes, he had lost weight. The tour was a lot of stress and when Zayn was put under so much pressure he just forgot to eat sometimes and started smoking a lot more. Also he had wanted to lose a few pounds. Everyone was always comparing the five of them, commenting on how they looked, how much they weighted and who was the best looking. That, together with his already low self esteem had made Zayn feel like he was not good enough. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not talented enough. Just not enough to be a member of One Direction.