There's no such thing as a perfect girl ➳ Teen Wolf

Chapter Twenty (Part 1)

(I strongly recommend you listen to the song above while reading this chapter or the part where they begin fighting. It'll make the chapter more intense)

I fasten the gloves on both of my hands, Isaac helps me place the black paint right under the bags of my eyes, Lydia helps me place my hair in a bun for when I turn into a hybrid, and Derek helps make sure my belt is fastened correctly.

"Remember Sophia, we're all counting on you. You're the most valuable person we have in this pack. We can't afford to have you hurt." Derek says.

"But no pressure." Stiles says, patting my shoulder.

"Yeah, I feel no pressure at all." I say sarcastically.

As we're getting ready, Scott and Kira walk in the door awkwardly.  Now a lot of things went down these past weeks. Scott and Kira unfortunately broke up and from what I hear, it's because Kira might not be what she thought she always was; which is heteromantic. She may or may not be romantically interested in Malia.

Which brings us to Malia and Stiles, they, too, broke up and for the same exact reason. Malia and Kira are both still trying to figure out who they are and until they do so, they believe that they cannot be in a relationship. And I fully support them. If they're not fully committed in the relationship, then they should not be in it. Isaac and Allison on the other hand, have gotten closer to each other than they were before. I instinctively turn around when I see the two of the lock lips and lock eyes with Derek.

He cocks his head towards the door, indicating me to come out with him. Without hesitation, I follow him out the door and into the hallway. He just stares at me for a good ten seconds without saying anything.

"Why are you staring at me?" I say nervously, thinking there was something on my face.

"Nothing. but come out with me." He says.

"Where?" I ask.

"You'll see."

He takes my hand and leads me out the hallway. We drive down to a very narrow road and stop at the side of the woods. He opens the door for me and I walk out the car. He tells me to follow him into the woods and I trust him enough to do so. I ask him where we're going once again and he says nothing this time. We walk around the woods for a good five to ten minutes before we reach our destination.

I carefully take a look at gigantic building staring back at me, it looks like it's been broken down by a huge hurricane. I give Derek a questioning look.

"This use to be my family's house." He says, with a wave of sadness taking over his face.

"Oh my gosh.." I say, "What happened?"

"The Argents. They burned it down, with my family. Only three of us survived."

"Where are the others?" I ask.

"Peter and I are still here. Cora, my younger sister left Beacon Hills."

"I'm so sorry Derek, I never knew this." 
"No need to apologize."

"Can I ask why you brought me here?"

"I wanted to tell you that no matter what happens out there, you still have to be strong and keep fighting. Just like I did. I lost almost all of my family, but I still kept on fighting because life goes on. Sophia, no matter what or who you lose out there, do not give up." Derek says.

I've never seen Derek like this before. We sat there for a while and my mind drifted off to the first time I met Derek and how I thought he was a complete pain in the ass. Then, I started thinking of how he let me train with Ashley to help me control my powers, then I thought of when he kissed me on my forehead, like I was his baby sister. I should have never leaned in for that kiss because that was the perfect opportunity for him to reject me, which he took.

"I wanted to." He begins.

I curse myself for thinking about that around me. I completely forgot the werewolves and sense your emotions and kind of read your mind.

"Why didn't you?" I ask.

"Because, you needed to focus on training and I needed to focus on trying to help you." He begins, "Don't get me wrong, if this whole werewolves vs Vampires, vs Supernatural creatures thing wasn't going on I would not have a second thought in doing it. But right now, there are more important things to focus on."

"And after that?" I ask.

"After that, if you're still interested and I'm still interested, we'll see how it goes."

"Alright..we should head back, they're probably wondering where we are."

As I begin to get up, he takes my hand,stopping me from moving forward. I don't know if its the air or the sense of his touch, but my hands instantly form goosebumps.

"Tell me something about you." He says.

I sit back down and think. Something about me? I'm not that interesting. I don't have any tragedy or something deep to tell him.

"I don't really know what to say." I say.

"Before you met Isaac and his friends, why didn't you have any before."

That's when it hit me, memories of me and my ex best friend begins to flood through my brain. For the first time, I recognize this heavy weight I've always carried around in my chest. I begin to tear up a little because of how painful the memories were. I take a deep breath and let it out.

"I-I did have a best friend. Two actually, their names were Devin and Stacey. We always hung out together, and everyone knew us at the three musketeers. We were almost like siblings, instead Stacey was the least closest to us, not because we excluded her, but it was because she had other friends, more than we had. We would always hang out, sleep over each other's houses. Then, Devin had cancer. Devin was closest to me than anyone else. He was my big brother and also my first love. I really loved him, I truly did.We had this connection that was like no other. It was unique and special. I thought we would grow old together, get married, have kids, and etc.  Unfortunately, he died six months after his diagnoses. I never got to tell him I loved him, I cried so much, even when me and Jake dated, I still cried over Devin and even until this day, I cry over him. Thinking about it, I only dated Jake because he was very similar to Devin. Sure I loved Jake, I still do kind of, but I was never in love with him. I only loved him because of how similar he was to Devin. That's before he cheated. " I say, sniffling.

"What happened to you and Stacey." He asks.

"Stacey and I hung out for a bit after his death, but we eventually drifted apart and hung out with other people. I spent a year trying to make friends like them, but it didn't work out, nobody could fill that hole. So, I decided to stop trying to make friends, and just focus my time studying and getting good grades. School is my scapegoat. It's like my safe haven. I get to distract myself from the hurt and pain."

And that's when the tears began to trickle down my face, at first, it was just little sniffles but those sniffles lead to intense sobbing and crying on Derek's arms while he strokes my hair. I've never told anybody this story, not that there were people to tell it to. But I slowly felt the weight of the world lift off of my shoulder.

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