Why I Never Told You ( Harry Styles Fan-Fic)

Changing Your Future

"Okay so the car should be here any minute. Alex, Simon said he would like you to go ahead and come with us just so he can meet you and start talking money. Oh and you should bring Styles because management probably should know in case the paps do find out" Liam tells us as we are walking to my front door. I nod an look at Harry, he's just standing there looking at his feet awkwardly. "Harry, can we talk for just a moment?" I ask brushing his arm. He looks up and nodes his head. I walk towards my kitchen. " Harry...we, we don't have to do this, I can stay here. I would never force you into any of this, I've been doing fine all by myself this whole time and I don't want you to resent us..." I tell him, staring down at my feet.  "Alex, ugh I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to make you think that. I want you two to come. I really do! I'm just worried about management, they already think I'm so irresponsible. I'm worried what they will say, that's all. I promise it's not you love." Harry says as he pulls my face up to meet his eyes.

In that moment I know that this is what I'm supposed to do. That this is the best thing for Harry and Styles, and maybe even myself. All I have to do is keep reminding myself to never fall in love with Harry, I will only be hurt in the end. We will just be friends....we can be friends right?

I walk outside Louis is trying to put Styles's booster into the car. I laugh to myself, watching him a little longer before I go a help him. I quickly strap it in' sit Styles in and buckle him up. After climbing in I turn to see all the boys gawking at me. "what?!"  I exclaim startling them all from their thoughts. "nothing" they mumble in unison, pilling into the car. As we pull up to the studio, all you see are the flashing of many cameras. We all piled out of the car, as I pull Styles out of his seat, Harry hands me his jacket. "here, put this over his head so they don't get a picture of him." he says with a wink. I do as I'm told, telling Styles to hide.  He wraps the jacket around himself ducking his head down into it. "here goes everything" I think to myself as Harry tucks me under his arm and I carry Styles toward our future. "This will change everything" I whisper. "I know" Styles answers back leaning his head against  my chest.

Harry's POV

I pull Alex and Styles under my arm. Alex seems a little hesitant but God I could stay like this forever. As we walk towards the entrance I hear the paps shouting questions our way "Harry are you two an item? Who's the kid?' "Harry is that the same girl from the concert?" they ask repetitively. I just want to scream! "No she's not my girlfriend, anymore anyways, I love her with all of my heart but I blew everything, I left her to go through so much all alone! There were so many signs, so many what ifs and I was to caught up with my music to even notice! I don't even have the guts to ask her to be with me" I silently yell at myself.

We finally get through the entrance and into the lobby. "Okay so keep him covered, even fans will take pictures, then tweet them for the world to see. Follow me" Liam tells Alex. She nods. We follow him up some stairs and down a hall until we get to an office. Simon is sitting behind a desk, he greets us all when we come in, then stands and kisses Alex's cheek (I tense up)  as he introduces himself. Alex blushes, "I'm Alexandra Edwards, and this is Styles" she says placing Styles down to stand next to her. Simon looks at all of us. "why do I get the feeling that I'm missing something terribly important" he says crouching down to look at Styles. "Hello there" he says putting out his hand. Styles takes it, then looks up to meet Simons eyes. "well then aren't you a very handsome young man, you remind me of someone I'm very close to" Simon coo,d as he glanced up at me.

Alex's POV

"Boys, why don't you take this little one down to the lounge and get him some ice cream and whatever else he wants, and give the three of us some privacy please." Simon says with a wave of dismisel. Styles clings to my leg. "Can I go Mummy?"  he asks pulling at the hem of my shirt. " Of course sweety, you go and have fun while Mummy talks about work, and make sure those boys don't get themselves in any trouble, alright?" I say winking at the four boys lingering in the doorway. " Okay!!" Styles shouts in excitement running to take Louis's hand. They leave, Zayn being the last one out pulling the door closed behing him. 

"Alright, I want to know what in the bloody hell is going on and why this is the first that I'm hearing of it, and Harry, it better be good." Simon says calmly but you can hear the warning in his voice. "I, um ....We uh..." Harry stamers trying to find the right way to explain things.  

"Mr. Cowell, if I could explain.." I say, Harry giving me wide eyes.  "Go on" Simon states waiting patiently. "Okay, I'll start by telling you that Styles is our son" I tell him nervously. " Though I'm sure you knew that already, but I want to start from the begining.' He nods " Harry and I were pretty serious in highschool and part of college but our freshmen year of college he decided to try out for your show. He made it on, and I got to see him a few times throughout the trip but the last time I saw him, about a week before you anounced the winner I found out that I was pregnant. I didn't know how to tell him, and then he won and I knew that it didn't matter, all that mattered was his career." I told him, the words bubbling from my lips, I pause taking a shakey breath. I realize tears are flowing down my cheeks, I've never actually had to explan this to anyone. " I decided not to tell him, and convinced myself to get an abortion, but I couldn't do it, so instead told Harry it wouldn't work, that I needed to focus on school and not on a boy that was halfway around the world. You see Mr. Cowell I just wanted Harry to go on and live his dream. I knew that if I told him he woldn't go and I couldn't bare to take all of that away from him." I continue to tell Simon, he nods his head, looking to Harry. I can feel Harry's eyes boring into me, begging me to look at him but I just can't.

Harry's POV

"So how did you find out Harry?" Simon asks in a soothing voice, probably because he can see the shock and heartache etched into my features. "Well, we were obviously here for the tour and I had slipped up telling the boys that I used to live here and had dated this girl here for a really long time. So when we were in the limo Louis just had to snatch away my phone and call Alex. He invites her to the concert and we talk for a while after. I went back to her house and well I fell asleep. When I woke up she was making breakfast for Styles and when he looked at me I just knew." I tell him shrugging my shoulders in pure connfusion. "I see, well I'm going to talk a little bit with the rest of management but here's my idea..   I'm going to hire you Alexandra, but also you and Harry are going to have to spend a lot of time together, be seen out in public, staying in the same hotel room, with Styles of course. We are going to have to try and keep him from being seen as much as possible. If the paps do make the connection I want it to seem like the two of you are together. If they find out we will spin a story saying that you've been flying to see the two of them for the last three years, you didn't want them being harrassed, and you are both ready for your relationship to be public." Simon tells us, using his buisness tone. I steal a glance at Alex.

"Okay" Alex tells Simon, glancing at me. " I'll do all of that" she says shaking her head. "Me too" I state quickly. "Can we go?" I ask eager to get the hell out of here and talk to Alex. "Yes you can go but you boys have an interview in the morning" He tells me turning to Alex " I want you to meet me at the same time to get them ready and then we can talk money" he tells her then looks down to the papers on his desk. We leave the room I pull the door closed. As soon as it latches I turn to Alex.  She looks up at me giving me a small smile. "Look I really want to talk about us." the words slip from my lips before I even notice I'm saying them. Her smile fades and she looks at he shoes. "Harry, right now there isn't an us, we are friends, can't it just stay that way?" she tells me, I instantly regret even bringing it up.

" You do realize we will never be just friends right?  You're the one that kissed me!  And now you want to say that we are just friends! I'm in love with you! I don't want to be friends, I want to be with you, I never wanted to break up, I never wanted to be without you and then last night, it was so perfect, and now your saying that you don't want to be with me?" I yell the words at her, feeling like my heart is breaking all over again. " Harry" she whispers my name as I'm walking away. I keep walking afriad if I turn I'll just yell everything I'm feeling. "Harry, you will stop and listen to me!"  she yells after me, I stop but don't turn. "I'm not saying that we won't end up together. I'm saying that it's not what I want right now. I haven't seen you in over three years, and you expect me to just jump back in? I can't, I need time to just get to know you again, to fall in love with you again" she tells me, whispering the last part. I turn to look at her, tears streaming down her face. I make my way back to her, pulling her face to meet mine I kiss her forehead. "I'm sorry" I whisper, she nods. "I didn't realize..I just.." I stuttered trying to find the words to say. "It's fine Harry, It's always fine" she tells me wrapping her arms around my waste.

Okay, so I hope everyones holiday went well, I just wanted to say I know there are most likely mistakes and obviously this story isn't true, so don't get to upset with the details.  

XXX AnnaKay