breathe

chapter 5: Hospitals

When I came out of the comer a couple weeks later. Everyone was standing infront of me, acting like they cared ... Well my mum and Miles did.
I was really week and my speach was quiet, Cath and meme brought me my favourite cds, and snacks with little gifts.

I looked around the room a couple times, but i couldn't see Daniel. "Were is he?" I looked puzzled looking for a answer to were he was. My mum looked at miles and meme for a second to then tell me ... "See Sophie, when you went into this comer he blamed it on himself for not being there for you! So he locked himself away and no one has seen him for weeks" I looked at the bottom of the bed, at my ghost white feet. I didn't want to cry but it came out anyways, I thought he would wait for me to wake up... But he wasn't.

I took a nap to keep my mind off him, and I didn't want to speak to anyone, for a little while.My heart was breaking into little pieces not because he wasn't there but because I wasn't there for him, he feels like it's his fault... But it's not.

I woke up a couple hours later, and riped off my tags and leads, this wasn't going to happen to me or him. I love him too much, I left the hospital quickly not letting anyone see me. I called a taxi because my body hurt too much from the comer, I pulled up outside his house and nocked onto his door. His dad answered, "hello?" He looked at me puzzled not knowing who I was, "Hello Mr.Humphrey, I'm Sophie I've come here to speak to Daniel!" he opened his mouth, and pointed upstairs. He was so shocked to see me out of hospital.

I sprinted upstairs and found his room, I didn't nock because I wanted to see if he was okay, as soon as possible, bursting through the door I saw him sitting in front of his window, with his arms held out on each side of the wonky Brown chair. I fell to my knees in shock... Blood -- so much blood, I was scared to go over just incase.

I curled up into a ball and held my stomach not being able to breathe, I couldn't believe it, I know I don't know what actually happened but, my heart pumped out my chest, and my throat closed up. He stood up and turned slowly "Sophie?" He questioned "OMG SOPHIE YOUR HERE YOUR ACTUALLY HERE!!" I stood up realizing he was there in front of me.  "Daniel, your okay I thought you were dead!" We hugged for ages, not wanting to let go of each other.

I helped him to clean his deep cuts and stitched them up, I showed him my cuts and he just rubbed his fingers across them... "This is just something that makes your canvas exciting and not so plain and boring. I'll help you as long as you help me" he kissed my forehead and I replayed with "okay".

We talked about everything that had happened and cuddled for hours smiling and laughing at everything, because we were so happy, knowing we were both okay. I layed on him amd fell asleep, he ran his fingers through my hair and rubbed my back. I only slept for a little bit because I woke up from thinking of what could have happened, but turned around to see his beautiful face.
I layed there watching him and kissed his lips he kissed me back, opening his eyes he flipped me over.

"Only if you want to..." I loved the way he made sure I was comfortable, I nodded my head.... It was so amazing the feeling of love was so beautiful,he did it with me. Lips were so soft and lush, the way our body's rubbed together, and his hands and lips going down my body. It was magical!

After we made food and watched a movie. A notification came up on my screen saying ... "Wow, why couldn't she had died in that comer" my happiness vanished and I felt like nothing! "What was that?" He squeezed my hand tightly because he was angry at the message he saw over my shoulder. "Nothing it's fine!" I smiled not knowing at the time he had saw it. "Don't lie Soph, I saw it!" He looked at me with sadness and shock because I lied to him."if we are gonna be in a relationship then we have to be truthful" I looked up at him
...
"Fine. Someone posted something on Facebook about me" I showed him the text, the anger went sky high and he said just wait.

I didn't know what that ment but I left it because I didn't want to ruin anything or know anything I didn't want to know.

The next day at school he asked our head teacher if he can do a speach in assembly, so he did. He took all night to write it and it said something like this....

"The world was made by a creator - or -  the big bang depending on what your opinion is, mine is God, and growing up as a Catholic I learnt that God wants us to love each other and be there for each other and not put people down . To help the planet and be good stewards, but some of us aren't the best at this and others 'Alice' are worse. Now I'm sorry to say your name but it has come to my concern that you have been and are bullying a lovely caring and gorgeous girl Sophie. I want everyone to know who you really are and what hurt and trouble you have put her through..."

Now I know that was quite boring but, I wanted to show you a little bit of what he did to show me he cares, and will always be there for me. He showed everyone texts and posts, that were about me that Alice said, and ended it with the last thing she said.
Everyone turned to her and said comments like - 'who are you?' 'Omg your vile, how could you!' I didn't feel so alone.

We all clapped and I smiled softly shaking my head because I had someone who would finally do anything for me. Alice ran out of assembly covering her face and crying, not because she was bated out but because she realized what she had been doing to me.
After assembly we all left the hall in silence, being in shock to what had happened. I went to the bathroom quickly before I went to my next period. I saw Alice leaning over the sink and then run into the toilet, so I went over to speak to her .

"Alice!" She sniffed and tried to stop crying, but it was too hard so she opened the door, and let out the biggest yelp as if she was in pain, not physically but mentally. "Everyone... Hates me" I didn't know what to say to her at first but then I just told her everything... "Don't you understand that you are the most popular girl in school and everyone wants to be you, well I know I do. For my whole secondary life you have bullied me and what happened in assembly. I didn't know was going to happen!" She looked up all confused wiped her tears and replied, "Sophie! I didn't mean to put you through this, I think you are so stunning and I have ALWAYS wanted to be you and be your friend but you never let me." She stood up and held my shoulders "my life isn't what everyone thinks it is..." I now was confoused "my mum and dad died when I was born so I had to go into forster care, everyone there hates me." I told her everything and she told me everything, she even said that she's tried to comit suicide three times.

We hung out for the rest of the day. Realizing that this wasn't what it should have been, everyone might think I'm crazy for forgiveing her, but understanding what she's going through, and her reasons I think she deserves a chance.