Losing a Winning Battle

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~~~Sylvia's P.O.V~~~
I wake up to laughter, it wasn't mean laughter either. It was the boys, they were getting ready for something. "Mmmm," I mumble and try to move.

I couldn't move."Brother," I cry out, tears already on my face.

A couple seconds later Gerard walks in front of the bed. "You okay? What's wrong," he says.

It was clear he was confused. "Mm.. I-I- can't move,"  I choke out.

Gerard sighs and scoops me out of bed. There was a small thud and we both looked down. It was my bear. I hand dangling feet above it, fingers still curled in a holding position. Brother laughs and says, "you looked so adorable when you were sleeping."  I blush and he gently grabs my dangling arm and places it on my lap, gently uncurling my fingers.  "Your medicine did say sleep paralysis was a common symptom and the doctor said that it'll go away after some time," Brother says gently brushing his finger across my cheek.  

Ryan pokes his head into the small sleeping room and says, "she alright?"

Gerard nods and says, "sleep paralysis. Kinda scared her a bit."

Ryan nods and says, "well she can come with us to the show, unless-."

Gerard shakes his head, and says, "she's coming with us."

Ryan sighs but does not say no. He carries me into the back of  the Satellite Hall and he sets me on his lap while a woman does his facepaint. Afterwards when he has to go onstage, he pulls a chair right up to the back of the stage.

He sets me there and says, "be good."

 I mutter a quiet okay and watch him walk onstage with the boys. Halfway through their performance there was a set change and I guess I was in this guys way. "Hey girl, can you like get the fuck outta my way," he says impatiently. I try to stand up but am unable to move.

"I...I can't," I say quietly.

The guy looks down on me and says, "why not." I feel tears well up in my eyes and just as I go to say it Big brother walks up still singing his lines, he lifts me up and moves the chair over two feet and sets me back down.

He mouths a sorry and heads back on stage. The set guy glares at me but continues his work. After the show we went outback the venue to sign autographs. Gerard sets me on the see behind him. When he goes to walk away to get a soda, I grab his hand. "Brother..." I cry in a small whisper. He looks down at me wide eyed and then smiles. He picks me up and I sit on his lap while he signs autographs.

"Aww is this your girlfriend," A fans says gushing.

"Eh. No this is my... My sister," Gerard says.

"Brother," I whisper to myself smiling against his chest.

He laughs and I feel his chest move with each sound. After the autographs were done we went to this restraunt called "West Union." The boys ordered all bunch of stuff, but when the waitress got to me I froze up.

"Earth to Sylv. What do you want," Miles asks. I look back down at the menu. What did I want?  

"I..I'm good, I'm not hungry," I say quietly.