Things About Ben

Does He Know?

I wonder if he knows that I would drop everything with my new boyfriend if he even hinted at getting back together.

I wonder if he knows that I dream about it him all the time, and take the long way to class just so I can pass him.

I wonder if he knows that 90% of my journal is about him, or that this book exists.

I wonder if he knows that it's impossible for me to put my full heart in my relationships, because he still holds most of it.

I wonder if he knows that every time he sends me a message, I literally scream and jump up and down like the first time I was the room above his with his sister when he sent me that "I like you too" text(shortly followed by: "I heard that").

I wonder if he knows that to me, we're never over. 

I wonder if he knows that I live my life hoping he'll come back.

Do you know?