Blowing Away In The Wind.

Losing myself

I'm losing myself,

To the dark inside me.

Will I ever be free?

This depression,

These thoughts,

The fake smiles I wear,

Are beginning to fall,

Are beginning to fail.

I try to stay happy,

I know that others have it worst.

I tell myself that I'll be okay,

That i'll make it through the day.

I'm losing myself to these reckless thoughts.

My head is tied together so tightly.

In perfect knots.

I can't think straight,

I can't sleep,

There isn't anything i can do.

I feel so selfish,

I have a good life,

And i act so helpless.

I see a future,

Beautiful and bright.

But i'm in the dark,

So far from that light.

I'm losing myself,

And my grades too.

I don't mean to fail,

I just don't know what to do.

My head gets turned another way,

I can't force myself to look back,

I'm losing myself,

I can't find who i once was,

I feel like i'm in slow motion,

And no matter how much i hit the button,

The world just won't pause

I've dug down deep with these hands,

Hoping to find what i've lost.....

This isn't what i had planned....

THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAD PLANNED!!!!!!

I've lost myself..........