Black & White

P10- Scars

Lil nuggie ~ Lil Nuggie~ Lil Nuggie~

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Zane's POV
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I was a little down for the rest of the day, memories coming through my mind. Tears threatened to fall as I remembered how much pain.. I suffered so much..

*Trigger Warning*

You deserve to die, you twit. The voices came to my teenager mind. I was against the bathroom door, tears rolling down my face. The white tiles were tainted once again by the oozing red liquid. I regretted living.. I wanted.. I wanted to die. To end it all. The stupid thing I had done, was forget to lock the second bathroom door, that connected Garroth's room to the bathroom, along with mine. I had a knife, a bloody kitchen knife. I was so.. so close to ending it all.. just to get it taken away by my idiot brother who for some reason "loved" me. Pfft, it's all just lies.. (or so I thought.) "Baby Br-- ZANE!" Garroth screamed, as he opened the door, revealing the bloody mess. He ran up and knocked the knife out of my hands, leaving them hanging in the air, shaking uncontrollably. I was sobbing by the time my face was buried in the crook of his neck, him hugging me so tight, as if he never wanted to let go. He'd just saved my pitiful life, the one I had so.. much.. hatred over. I'd been this close to ending it all before, but I just couldn't get myself to push the knife farther. "I... d-don't want you to do this to yourself ever again.. P-P-Please.." Garroth mumbled. "I d-don't want to loose my baby brother.."
"M-Me neither Z-Zane.." a hesitant yet scared voice said quietly from the door. I looked up slowly, my vision blurry and my voice hoarse. "I... I'm so.. sorry.." I sobbed. Garroth squeezed me tight, pulling away. "I'm glad I opened that door.." Garroth mumbled, smiling tearfully.

That.. That was when I realized just how much I loved my brothers. My eyes were filling with tears from the painful memory, a weak smile forming in my lips. Travis was hanging out with me again, he had no reason not to, so I was fine with it. I laughed pitifully, embarrassed that tears escaped my eyes, slowly rolling down my cheeks. Travis came back into the living room, his smile fading when he noticed my tears. He sat down beside me, putting his arm around my shoulder. "If you don't mind me asking.. What.. What's wrong..?" I shook my head, leaning into him. "Come on, I'm your lov-- fr-friend. You can vent or whatever," he stuttered very hesitantly, his cheeks turning slightly red. I laughed, not realizing what he almost said. He squeezed my shoulders in a hug like way, smiling. I laid my head on his shoulder, sighing. "Just.. Just some deep memories from when I was younger, it's nothing, r-really..." I said, my voice breaking at the last part. Another few tears rolled down my cheeks. "Nothing...? I've told you before Zane, you can tell me anything if you need to get something off your chest. But.. but I won't pry." Travis said. "W-Well.. I'll make it short and simple. When.. When we were still in high school, I.. I wanted t-to.. I wanted to k-k-kill myself.." I mumbled, remembering the scars on my wrists, that had been reopened many times before. Travis opened his mouth slightly, then changed his mind. He just looked at his shoes. "I was.. I was going to commit suicide... B-But that night.. Garroth accidentally w-walked in on me and saved my l-life..." I started sobbing like a child, Travis almost instinctively pulled me into his chest, resting his chin on my shoulder. "I... I'm so sorry.." Travis said, clearly speechless. I shook my head. "It's.. I-I-It's o-okay..." I said, my voice muffled. He ran his fingers through my hair, me not being able to see the lust in his eyes. His hands were so warm, and him hugging me was heaven on earth. I low-key wanted to stay like that forever, but the time came when he pulled back, holding back a quick cough. I looked at the carpet flooring. "Th.. Thank you.." I said, wiping my blind eye with my sleeve. Travis tilted my chin up, cupping my face in his hands. He wiped my other eye with his thumb, his warm hands once again caressing my skin. I pulled away, heat rising to my cheeks. "O-Oh..! L-Look how late it is, I think I should head on over to the house, the guys've been wondering where I've been throughout the day this last week," Travis laughed, running his fingers through his hair. "Heh.. Sorry I've kept you out this late.." I said. "It's not a problem, really." He smiled, flashing that grin. "See you tomorrow, then?" I asked. "Of course. I got off for four days straight this week, surprisingly." Travis said, lifting my spirits a bit. "Have a good night, Travis.." I said as I closed and locked the door behind him. I turned off the lights downstairs, pulling the curtains closed. I headed upstairs, and to my room so I could wash up and go to sleep. I didn't need to turn off any lights, nor close the curtains. I always for some reason kept the upstair curtains open.

I took a shower and all that jazz, and finally got to curl up in my bed and fall asleep, holding a black body pillow in my arms. Night, Travis..

Hehehehehehe........ The_Vampire_King and AprilsGalaxy are the only ones who can guess why I am really excited for next chapter... You guys MAY like it, but some of you guys may have to wait for the chapter AFTER that. I put a warning at the beginning. Bye~!