say it back

15 - i love you

youngjae blankly stared at the ceiling while thinking of what just happened between him and mark. he wants to cry and scream out his frustrations but he just laid on his bed silently while battling with himself whether or not he should tell jaebum about what happened.

he doesn't want to lie to jaebum but he doesn't want to anger him neither. he decided to never tell anyone about what happened today and pretend that it never happened in the first place. his thoughts was cut off when his phone beeped. he opened it and saw that jaebum texted him.

i just got home. sorry i couldnt walk you home today. goodnight choi youngjae, see you in dreamland:D

-jaebum sunbae

a smile left youngjae's lips as he read jaebum's message.

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youngjae's day revolved around avoiding mark. whenever he would spot mark, he would immediately hide from him. jackson noticed youngjae's strange behavior but ignored it thinking that it was still about jaebum.

the day passed slowly for youngjae. he wasn't able to focus and he'd often get called out for not listening during class. on lunch, youngjae decided not to go with jackson and yugyeom and hid in the back building of their school. the classes are almost over and youngjae couldn't wait to finally go home and end his suffering. when the bell rang, youngjae quickly got up from his seat and didn't even bother to say goodbye to jackson.

he is walking fast in order to leave the school as soon as possible. he finally got out and it gave him a huge relief. while walking, a hand suddenly grabbed youngjae which made him scream out of fear.

"its just me youngjae." jaebum said while laughing at the younger's reaction.

"go to hell please." youngjae said with his heart still racing.

jaebum just laughed and grabbed youngjae's wrist. "follow me."

"where are we going?" youngjae said while getting dragged by jaebum. "please slow down."

jaebum walked slower and removed his hand from youngjae's wrist. he held his hands and smiled at the younger. "you'll know when we get there."

youngjae just followed jaebum quietly until they reached their destination. it was a park. youngjae looked around and didn't see anyone else. it was quiet in the park and they were the only one in there. youngjae's imagination started to work. he shook his head and erased the dirty thoughts on his head.

"we're here." jaebum stated happily. he lead youngjae near a huge tree. he opened his bag and pulled two papers out and handed one to youngjae.

"what is this?" youngjae asked.

"let's write something for each other in 5 years." jaebum answered and youngjae gave him a confused look.

"huh?"

"like...uh...write a letter to future im jaebum." jaebum said embarrassed. "and why?" youngjae asked.

"i just want to do it, it looks romantic." jaebum confessed and youngjae laughed. "you are so corny jaebum. do you even know if we'll still be with each other in 5 years?"

"of course! i'll be with you forever!" jaebum said. "just do it please"

"fine." youngjae rolled his eyes. "why am i even dating you?"

jaebum happily wrote his letter to the future youngjae. youngjae tried to peek at what jaebum was writing but jaebum guarded his paper well. youngjae started to write the letter and was thinking hard about what to put in there. jaebum finally finished writing and was waiting for youngjae to finish too. after few minutes, youngjae finished writing and folded his paper.

he put his letter and jaebum's to the box that jaebum brought. jaebum already dig in near the tree and he placed the box in there.

"let's read it together in the future." jaebum said and youngjae hummed in respond.

i hope by the time you read this, we are still together. but if things didn't work out between the two of us, i want you to know that i am still grateful. you'd always have a part in my heart.

i dont really know what "i love you" means but if it means "i hope you never leave my side" then i love you jaebum.

- c̶h̶o̶i̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶n̶g̶j̶a̶e̶ the person who always adored you