Stop & Smell The Roses

LOST

The heart pumping in with endless thoughts drifting through my mind,
I've seen so much that I want to turn blind.
I never asked for this, do not want to face it anymore,
The scar doesn't heal but it turns sore.

It isn't that easy to stand up with an erect spine,
When I stand I always make it look fine.
But only I know what pain am I taking with every effort,
My chest burns like an abandoned desert.

Even I want love and unconditional nurture,
I can't live heartlessly like a sculpture.
Give me a hug and say that you would never go,
If I've hurt you then let it go,
But don't part ways now, I need you,
Do not leave later, I'll still need you.

Pamper me the way you would have pampered yourself,
Fill my heart with warmth the way you fill books in a shelf.
A place for everything and everything in its place,
But when you ask for happiness it will just misplace.

Ever had any hopes? Ever wanted to hold on?
Lose that only thing and then just move on.
How easy does it sound, it seems less damage,
I did not want to be a kind of that ramage.

Its hard to get them back when someone leaves,
Departure always causes my heart a heave.
What do you do when you want to call out to your father,
Do you raise your voice or expect him to look rather?
Will he come back, leaving your mother at the other end?
Or will he stay there and hope to be at the other end?

Can you make a move? Do you want to run to him?
Or will you stay back and be thankful coz there's none to him.
Will you let him breathe or will you be his breathe?
Will you hurt him with the truth or be hurt to serve as a sheath?

You certainly don't know where this is going,
You've never really saw the path.
But you want him with you so much,
You really do not want to face the broken path.
You're so feared, you've always paid a heavy cost.
You are always trying to figure out ways, but even you you know you're lost.

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