Will You Be My Saviour?

the beaten, the broken

Abbi's POV :
When Roseanne walks in the door, the table is set, food is cooking, nearly done, and smells wonder full. Roseanne notices nothing, just grunts at me and drops her things in the floor. I ignore her and keep up my cooking. I'm even making home made strawberry short cake for a dessert. Roseanne walks heavily throughout the kitchen and into the living room and switches on the tv. I pick up a glass dish with the short cake batter to dump it into the pan but my hands are sweaty so the bowl slips out of my hands and crashes to the floor. I yelled in surprise "Shit. No. Damit..." i began to pick up the batter covered broken glass, and Roseanne stomps into the kitchen. "WHAT THE FU -... YOU IDIOT! YOU FUCKING RETARD ! CLEAN THIS DAMN MESS UP !"
Roseanne smelled of achol again, this won't end well for me. Roseanne walked closer to me and Spartan kicked me in the ribcage. I screamed, a scream the could cuddle your blood. I feel into the broken -glass- batter mixture. Warm, salty tears began to spring form my blue eyes. Roseanne turned on her heel and went back to the living room, muttering about how slutty and stupid she thought that i was. I cleaned the mess, all the while clutching my ribs. I finished the dinner and remade the shortcake batter. I made baked Mac and cheese. I served Roseanne, careful not to do anything to get hit again. I myself, didn't eat. Not a lick. My ribs and stomach hurt so bad the sight of food made me want to puke. When Roseanne finished, i did all of the dishes and did the laundry. When these chores when finished, i walked as fast as i could to my room.I need to be alone. When i got to my room i shut the door behind me. I went to my stereo and played my saviours music, black veil brides. I wish i could meet them, or maybe even just the one. Andy. Just once. Then i would be complete. But for now, releasing the pain by myself self would have to work. I walked over to my picture frame of me and my best friend, Hailie. I missed her. Everyday. Hailie died two years ago in a car crash with her cousin Tyler.
*flashback*
He was drunk. Hailie talked to me just before the accident and was trying to get ty to give her the keys, but he refused. He insured he was sober enough to drive. I told hailie to come over when she got back, Roseanne was gone for the weekend and hailie only lived a few houses down. Hailie agreed, but never came over or called. I decided to go to hailie's in case she need help with Tyler, only to find her parents balling their eyes  out. "Mr and Mrs spark, what's wrong? Where hailie.?" They pulled me into their hugging/ crying circle. Mr spark started to speak.
"Uh...*sniff* ... she was in a accident with Ty... he swerved to avoid a mack truck and smashed into a tree... *sniff* ... she was ejected and a branch impaled her body... Tyler is fine. Seven stitches to the head... why did we send hailie...*sniff* ..."
I ran out of the spark's house crying.  'WHAT ! She wasn't dead. I just talked to her. They're  Fucking with me. That's a really bad joke' ... despite my refusing to believe hailie was dead, I was bawling. Something was wrong. I called and called hailie. No answer. Five days later was the funeral. That's when it all clicked. She was gone. Hailie was gone. 'Im all alone'  was all i could think.
*end of flashback*
I reached behind the picture frame. I pulled out my new and only friend. A rusty, but sharp, razor blade. I removed all of my bvb, botdf, and bmth bracelets, reveling at least fifty scars. Horozontial, vertical, up, down, left, right. I dragged the blade crossed my skin. It felt good. It stung, but it released some of my pain. I did it more. "One for every time I was alone. One for eveytime I was beaten. One for the bad times. One for everytime someone said o was worthless. One for every time they where right."
I didn't stop until there was over twenty new cuts. There was blood dripping from my arm. Good thing the carpets black i thought. I grabbed a rubbing achol cloth and ran it over the cuts. It stung and took a little more of the darkness filling my heart away. " I'm broken..."