Secrets

Its the song that never ends it just goes on and on

It keeps replaying in my mind every time I see him or hear him so first my name is luna I'm 18 the world is shit and so am I I'm black West Indian and Puerto Rican and I'm in love with a bad boy rapist
The day it happened
"Mom I'm leaving" "alright I love you tell kates mom I said hey" "oh I will I love you to bye"
I walked out into my hallway into it smelling like ace and weed "hey" is spoke with authority I hadn't heard from him in a week and I'm ticked kind of but I'm afraid to say anything to him cause I'm afraid to lose him "hi" I said in barely a whisper "come here let me get some before u leave" it's been happening sense trump got elected cause of that stupid bucket list I almost killed myself cause I was so worried my mom would find out we had sex in his older brothers gages house the only thing that remains is the social groups and scars back to the story "I can't I'm leaving I don't wanna walk in the dark" "I'll walk u" "no now bye" with that I got down two steps and he snatched me remind u I haven't grown and he is so big now and it hurts when we do it "ace stop get off" I whispered while he dragged me out the back to the little basement where we meet sometimes it has a little blanket I got pulled back into reality as my skirt was ripped as well as my underwear "Ace get off of me" i whisper yelled so my mom wouldn't hear and he wouldn't go to jail all the sudden he put him self into and I screamed so loud my mom had to have had heard it hurt I haven't had sex in 2 months so I'm tight and he's just going in then I feel he's not wearing a rubber "omg omg omg ace your not wearing a-" " oh fuck I just came in you omg fuck GET OUT OF HERE!!!" "Ace-" "Go just GO" I started crying "babe I'm so sorry I love-" "save it" I kept walking and in pain mind you that I know he's following me he always does to make sure I'm safe but right now I'd rather be dead than here i look behind me and he's  right there he's there I see I'm right in front of Kasey house he breathes out a bye and i just run up the steps banging on the door great that she home alone and that was the last time I saw him