Adopted by 1D

chapter 4

Sydney's POV (from the previous night)

Zayn asked me to play for them. I'm scared actually and since Niall made that "promise" I don't know what I'm feeling. But I should obey orders and I learned that I have to the hard way. I raise my arms bringing the cold mouthpiece to play. But nothing comes out. I try to get something out, but nothing does.

"If you don't what to play, It's fine." Niall says still sitting next to me. I lower my arms and he grabs my hand. I flinch because I can't exactly trust him yet and also I've always flinch when someone touches me. I give in and Niall is holding my hand and I'm scared what might happen next so I look down and say,"I..I hope you aren't mad, I...I just...I'm sorry."

At the end I start crying. Crap! I'm crying in front of One Direction and people I don't trust yet. Man i have trust issues...

Zayn walks over and sits next to me. My heart starts pounding and I'm scared because he is so strong. So I build up the nerve and yell,"PLEASE DON'T HURT ME I'M SO SORRY I'LL PLAY I'LL PLAY!" then began playing the Best Song Ever one of the many songs I know by heart. I don't need to think about my fingers because I know this song to well.

I finally finish and they all looked amazed or something. I feel upset for the outburst so I put my head down so no one knows the pain in my eyes."That was amazing!" they all say at different times. "Thanks." I say with a small but sad smile that to me is one of the worst fake smiles I've ever done.

They say it's dinner and Niall helps put my stuff away, which I don't know why it's very easy and no one never really helps me. When I told them I don't eat a lot, I mean it I don't have an eating disorder I'm just used to a spoon full of something once a week. Mac n cheese is whats for dinner. Oh geez.

"Are you going to eat some love?" Liam asks me. I nod and pickup my fork. I can only eat half of it, but that will last me about a week. I say I'm done and Niall picks me up and brings me to my room. Okay I'm scared again.

"Now Sydney we've decided to keep you around us including sleeping so you learn you're safe here." Niall says. I widen my eyes because they might find out my secrets. Oh no...

"Okay." I answer back. He leaves so I put my Pj's on and open Instagram. I love Instagram but it seems everyone hates me on it. When Niall walks in seems mindblown I have IG and I say that I've been following him for 3 years so he opens up and follows me. HA beat that stupid haters you don't have 1/5 of One Direction following you!

Niall says that we should go to bed so I nod and lay down. I'm cuddled up his chest, my head at the crook of his neck. He wraps his arms around me and whispers,"There's no need to be afraid. We're here to help and keep you safe. We love you and always will and don't ever forget it."

Of course you say that to make me feel good and safe, but I don't trust any of you quite yet even though I'm a fan. After he says that I fall asleep and for the first time in a long long time I didn't cry myself to sleep and I fell asleep in someone's arms that hopefully really does love me.

AN:

First of all Happy late Christmas!! Haha sorry for the late update my computer is soo slow. Any way do you like it so far? If so share it ! vote and comment to! Oh and if you celebrate boxing day Happy boxing day lol I don't know. Well yeah I'll try update soon Love you!