I can't believe I'm saying this, but, this year was the worst Christmas ever. It wasn't the presents, the people, or the food (all that was amazing) it was me, is me. I'm just not enjoying myself this year, it's just all a big blur. I can barely remember the good times I have or had. Everything seems to be collapsing around me. I think I'm claustrophobic.... It may seem funny to you but my life seems to be in closed in a box, no way out, my heart is burning at the soul. The only solution i think is to jump into a nice freezing lake, idk maybe swim in lava. Totally possible....right? I'm hallucinating, seeing and imagining things that aren't really happening. Suicide seems like the right thing to do, but guess what, suicide doesn't appeal to me... Suicide is like forcing yourself out of a bad situation. Just remember there is a God who loves you and watches out for you. Well I need to go back to banging my head on a table to wake up from this strange dream, so see ya.
~Alex B.~
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