His Whole Life Stand

So what if I don't ? #4

Maya was walking back at her home, with Lucas by her side because she had no idea how to go back home. "I'm glad that I know you Lucas.." Maya said starring at a certain kid jumping up and down on the grass, holding a frisbee and laughing like crazy. "Yeah me too.." he shyly answered, Maya looked up at him and begun to laugh. "What are you laughing about ?" "I don't know, it's just funny knowing that you don't even know my story yet yesterday we had sex like crazy.." she said staring at her feet. He awkwardly laughed. "You're right, I should know more about you, but your beauty is enough for me" he said putting an arm around her waist.

"MAYA PENELOPE HART !" Maya heard as she closed the door. "I told you I was at a friend and I told you not to worry, what did you do ? You got worried so much you called Riley !" Maya said back , "WHERE WERE YOU ?!" "At Lucas's, a friend" Maya calmly said, walking upstairs. "Maya..." Shawn groaned which caused Maya to come back in front of him, they had a starring contest,  and Maya hated those, she doesn't have anything with starring at someone but with Shawn it was different.. he has this flame inside his eyes, the same when they first met, when him and her mother met, married, had a little sister, and when Katy, Maya's mom, died. And this flame made Maya melt in so many ways, in those eyes she could feel love.. pain and sadness. But also she could feel how much she was his whole life, his reason of being because yes ! Yes she has a little sister, yes he has a daughter.. but this one, this one died the same time as Katy, which destroyed the both of them into pieces, then begun to take those pieces and cut themselves to death... or at least that's what they thought, because Maya lifted herself and Shawn up, and decided by herself to leave this place. To leave California and start over to a new place, New York, maybe it was the way to forget about that horrible past, but right now. Right now Maya was crying into Shawn's arms. "I promise Shawn, I won't do that again" because she left him the same way when her mother died, she escaped the house for one night, blaming him for her mother's death, then blaming herself for everything she had done wrong, then coming back on a morning and helping him out. Heck it was hard to do, but she did it, she did it and Shawn could never forget that. "I love you Maya, you can go at that party tonight" Shawn said backing away from the hug. "Who told you about the party ?" Maya looked at him with wide eyes, he smiled and sat down on the couch. "My little pinky" he said smirking, Maya ran up and jumped on him, laughing. "No seriously your friend Riley told me, she was pretty angry too" Shawn said, Maya stood up and looked at him. "What's wrong ?" "Nothing, thanks for letting me go on that party.. I'm going to do my homework bye" she said walking to her room that was upstairs.
Maya joined Lucas at the park near her house, he came to her, smiled and then they started to walk away. The air was filled with an awkward silence coming from the both of them, Maya would glance at him to check he was okay, but then he would glance too and they would quickly turn their face again to stare in front of them, like nothing ever happened.. but it happened. And it already happened to Maya a thousand times already. And she was tired her life was repeating a second time. "So... the party.. how do you feel it ?" She begun, looking down at her feet as he was looking at her. "I think it's gonna be great, for once I'm not gonna drink like a crazy guy and then do every bad thing possible in this world.. maybe acting mature would be good to me" he said smiling, Maya smiled too, lifting her head up. "What was happening the other times ?" She curiously asked. "Well.. I was drinking a lot, and then I would turn the house upside down, pouring all the shampoos on the bathtub to make tons of foam, trying to fly" he said laughing, Maya begun to laugh as well. "Trying to fly? How.. I mean why would you do that ?" "You never know until you try, and seriously making a makeshift parachute isn't one of the solutions.. Bradley even tried with an umbrella... but the thing was that the morning after I'm the only one cleaning up, and seeing all this mess I made, is making me feel like I should've stayed with my loving parents who keep me out of trouble"

Maya was dancing with Lucas, she was drunk, very very drunk, like heck she couldn't be anymore drunk. And Lucas was not even slightly drunk, he had only drank one beer at the beginning, he was the sober one for once. "Maya let's go outside you're going to puke everywhere" he said laughing, Maya nodded, laughing hysterically as she put an arm around his neck so he could help her to walk properly. "Wow Maya, for someone who looks weightless, you surely are heavy when you're drunk !" Lucas said chuckling as he put her down on the grass. They were on the park on the middle of the night, at 2am, laying on the grass as Maya was still laughing for nothing.

"Lucas?" She weakly asked. "Yeeesss??" He answered looking at the stars. "What was your special reason to move to New York ?" "So you're highly drunk and you're asking me why I moved out to this place 7 years ago ? You are impressive Maya" he said chuckling. "Oh.. well I guess I don't have any special reason, I think my mom wanted to work here because it was better for her here than back in Texas.. you ?" Maya was looking at the stars as well. "I never told anyone in my whole entire life. And it's only been a few days that I know people here, anyways... about 3 months ago my mom died in a car accident with my little sister, and then my step father and I went through a lot of stuff before I decided all alone to come here with him, you know. To start over" he could tell she was sick, dizzy. And also a bit sad, why would she say that anyways ? "And so, when you got me back at my house, Shawn was there, waiting for me, but then when I saw in his eyes... pictures of the accident my mother and my sister had, I knew he was right for being angry at me, but he let me coming here with you tonight.. and seriously, I like it there, like San Francisco was such a boring town with a boring school and here I am, drunk as fuck talking to a guy that I've known for a couple days now..." she said all drunkenly, "and I'm not even sure of what you're going to do to me like you could always ra--" "shhhhh Maya" Lucas said warningly. "I like silence as well" he calmly said and she nodded. She closed her eyes and thought about life.

"Lucas ?" She finally spoke after 10 minutes of pure silence. "Yes Maya ?" He nicely asked. "When are you going to dump me ?" She asked, Lucas made eye contact with her. "What makes you think that ?" "Lucas, you're a fuckboy, and I knew it from the beginning that you were just nice to me to hook up with me and then throw me like an old and lonely sock because you lost the other one on the washing machine last week already.. when will you leave me ?" She asked a last time. "What if I don't ?" He sincerely said, she looked at him and begun to laugh. "Impossible ! You did the same with EVERY other girls in school, you can do that with me  with no problems" "yeah I know I can do it, but what if I don't ? You seem to be a really good person Maya"

"Do you have a cigarette?" She asked, he nodded and gave it to her, he took one as well and they light it up before going back at his home.