"I can't, "
she'll tell you.
"I won't ,"
Is what she means
What's she's trying to say is not that she's giving up on you
She's addicted to a game she doesn't want to play anymore
Caught in the cross fire of wanting to be loved and loving the wrong people
"I can't" means she won't
She can't let herself get hurt again
Rise again
Fly again
Only to be broken down again?
She won't let you hurt her
She won't let you near her
I can't let you near me.
I mean if all she ever wanted was grace
And all she ever felt was weak
Where would she ever find the strength to put her feet on the ground
And say no
Not anymore
She'd have to lay her foundation in quicksand
Plant her stability, evade her fragility
And grow.
But you can't teach a flower to grow
She can't hope the ground will rise to her expectations
and keep her anchored, because
Because the ground you've lain for her
The bed you've made for her, echoes infertility
Holds her lower than the devil ever could
And the grace she's reaching for, it's been lost
Because she looked to the ground when she aimed for the stars
She looked to his lies to save her
His shadow to comfort her
And His eyes to grace her
But she realized she couldn't
She wouldn't
I won't
