MASK

Part 2

"Khushi!" He says as he breaks the hug.

I look at him trying to avoid looking into his eyes, as much as I am happy about him being in love with me, I feel sad too for a reason unknown to me.

"Look at me, I love you Khushi, and it's okay if you don't feel the same about me, you can tell me and I wouldn't be angry on you for that, we would still be friends, but please don't cry like this, I always thought that maybe you also felt something towards me because of the way you always behaved around me, I'm sorry if I misunderstood"

"Don't be sorry you idiot, I've waited years to hear this from you and believe me I'm happy, and I love you too, I really do"

"So this are tears of happiness? Oh God, you're so filmy" He says as he holds me in his arms again.

"Why don't you guys just a get a room" Lavanya interrupts.

I break the hug and look at her, she's very happy, Ishaana and Rehan are also happy and they're staring at us with those cute expressions, like this is the best thing that's ever happened.

They're all happy for me and I'm happy for myself but then there's something still missing, something I don't know or understand.

We all walk to the hall, and get a movie to watch as we chill, I'm sited with Arnav holding his hand in mine, I can't really describe in words what this feels like, it's like the happiest moment of my life as I know I should be happy but I'm not, or maybe I am but just a bit happy, not as much as I should be.

"You okay?" Arnav asks as he kisses my hand.

"Yeah" I fake a smile.

It's until midnight when Arnav finally drops me home, honestly it was the best day ever, with my craziest group of friends, there's no way your day would end up without the rib tickling laughter and craziness.

"You happy?" Arnav asks as we both step out of the car.

"A lot, it feels like the best day I'd ever had" I smile.

He gets hold of my waist and pulls me closer to him until I can breathe him, he smells his usual, it's his perfume actually, but I've never had a chance to be this close to him, it's different from close, it's intoxicating.

I don't even know if he's going to kiss me but I close my eyes, it's just the first day and I wouldn't want him to kiss me, we need time before we get there but then if it happens, I'm ready.

I can hear him breath as he moves closer to my mouth, there a peaceful silent for like an entire minute and then he kisses me on the forehead and moves back. I open my eyes and look at him, I love this, I loved how he skipped my lips and kissed me on the forehead, which dint really mean I dint want to be kissed, I did, maybe it was just too early.

"I'm going to miss you for the rest of the night until I see you again tomorrow"

"Me too" I say as I jump on him and give him the tightest hug possible.

He waits outside until I'm inside the house and then finally gets in his car and drives off.

Such a perfect day it had been, everything was good, there was nothing I could complain about, if words were enough to express my happiness I would.

I skipped dinner at Lavanya's place so that makes me hungry right now, I don't care if it's midnight, I walk in the kitchen and find myself something to eat. I take my plate to the hall and switch on the TV. I sit on the couch as i switch through the channels until I find something I can watch, I take a bite and feel as if I can no more eat. I'm hungry but I can't eat, that weird feeling inside my stomach has been so damn irritating.