Test Four

Pushed To The Limit

Me and Jayce both receive stitches and they are to be taken out soon. Jayce and I decided to opt on a dinner date a couple of days later, to dads liking. The day after that, I sit next to Jayce on the way home on the bus, and we talk about anything. I am so happy that me and Jayce have worked out and that the last date didn't go like the other one. I give Jayce a wave before heading inside with Will, I stop when I hear mum crying. I run to her, and find her on the couch, with Mila squeezed in her arms, and her face over Mila's shoulder.

"Mum?" says Will walking over to her and sitting beside her, she lifts her head up quickly and pulls will into a hug, she looks like a mess, the living room looks like a mess, with chairs knocked over and paper everywhere. Mum cries into Wills shoulder, I grab Mila and sit beside her, quickly being taken into her hug.

"Mum? What's wrong?" she cries louder, pinning her lips together.

"No no no no..." she repeats,

"mum?" I say worried, making her look this way,

"Honey... I," she splutters and cries into her knees, me and Will stare at each other worriedly,

"Mum?" says Will patting her back.

"Mum please tell us what is wrong..."

"alright.." she whispers, slowly she gets up and sits on the coffee table, her face is red and her hair is messy, "I..." she puts her face in her hands. I pull Will next to me and sit Mila on my lap, before grabbing mums hands,

"Mum?"

"Ella... Will... Mila... Oh..." she stumbles and takes a deep breath, struggling to get any words out, "d-..." she cries, "daddy's not... daddy's not coming home!" She cries loudly, I can't feel anything as I hear Will burst into tears his face falling into his knees,

"Daddy isn't.."

"There was a crash baby..." mum says crouching on the ground pulling us into a hug, I start to cry, burying my face into mums shoulder.

"Daddy.." I mumble.

My eyes are almost sealed from the tears, and I find it hard to open them. But when I do, I find Will sleeping beside me on the couch, and mum also sleeping, her head rested on the edge of the couch beside Will, Mila is spread out sleeping to on my belly. I close my eyes one more time before carefully lifting myself up. Cradling Mila as she stretches out in my arms, I look down at Will stroking his hair, and then I look to mum. I put Mila beside Will and sit down beside mum, I shrink down and try to fit in the space between her and the couch. I jolt as a hand strokes my hair, I look up to mum and she gives me a sad smile, I return mine as she surrounds me in her arms.

"It's going to be okay baby girl..." she whispers in my ear, tears fall down my cheeks again, but they are quickly wiped away by mum, "he will always be here, watching down on us... I love you Ella, he loves you, he always will, okay?"

"Yeah," My voice muffled in her shirt, "I love you mum..."

...

We stand around dad's grave, the priest's voice muffled by the rain hitting the umbrellas. It always rains on sad days, I don't know why; mums hand clutches the umbrella handle, shaking. I take it off her and hold it over us, leaning my head on her shoulder. Will hugs mum, and I hold Mila, the ceremony goes quick. Once it's over we drive home, the car silent, I stare out the window, I want my Katie, I want her friendly hugs, and her telling me its okay. I head out of the car and I'm greeted by Jayce who is at his door. I run over to him and he hugs me, I cry into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry Ella," He strokes my hair, pulling me close.

"It was so sudden... I just don't know what to do..."

.....

I sit on my bed, I need some alone time. I feel like I am in a movie, whenever something good happens someone has to di- I pick up my pillow and scream into it, the tears stream down my face. I feel sick, I just wish this never happened, I want dad. I hear banging on the wall, coming from Will's room. I quickly run over and find Will punching the wall, a hole in it when he lifts his hands.

"Will!" I scream,

"What!?" We stare at each other, before I run over to him and wrap my arms around him. He cries into my shoulder, I hate seeing him like this, it makes me feel sick. We sit here for at least an hour, before his breath becomes slower, and he falls asleep. I pick him up and place him in his bed, pulling the covers over him and closing his curtains, then putting on his lamp.

I sit in the backyard, in my togs, in a puddle. It rains lightly, causing my hair to a have a layer of little rain drops, that appear white. I hear a knock on the fence and a slight smile spreads over my face, Jayce.

"hello," I say, he pokes his head over the fence waving

"hey." He climbs over and sits in the puddle with me, wetting his pants.

"How expensive are those pants?"

"Not expensive enough to not come and sit here." His face becomes serious, "how ya been?"

"Alright..." He stares at me,

"Uh huh, is that right... you are alright?"

"Yes..." He gives me a look, "fine, I'm not okay... I'm terrible," I lean my head on his shoulder, tears fall down my cheeks, as I close my eyes, I am tired.

...

I look down the 20 metres that drops down to the rushing river. I walked here; it wasn't far from my house. I don't want to be here anymore, I just feel sad, all the time, I want to be happy for mum and Will- Voices in my head get louder... I shake my head does that mean I should leave? I move my feet forward so that I am right on the edge. The voices screech, I cry into my hands, I am scared. I take my phone out of my pocket and I accidently press the on button, showing myself a picture of me and Will, we had just had a mud fight, and we are drenched in mud, we look as if we are laughing. Oh, what am I doing? I can't leave Will, my mum, my future sibling and Jayce. I can't just leave; I wipe the tears from my face and run home.

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