Past Will Always Be Present

Four

"Celestine! not to fast baby please"

I shout at my daughter. She was far from me,she was having a bike in the garden while Im in the main door. She can already bike a two wheel bike . Sheila was guiding her. Beside me was Patrick

"Ang laki na ni Cecee nuh?"

"Oo nga eh, I don't want her to grow up too fast" I sigh, my eyes was still in Cecee

"Flight natin mamaya diba? Di ka ba nagiimpake?"

"Patrick, I think I have to stay"

"Ha?! Nasabi mo naba kay Ethan yan?!" Yes,he was so surprised ako nga rin eh.

"Maine,I also want you back in showbiz pero.. Wag padalosdalos Maine"

"Alam ko pero my decision is final. Si Ethan nalang hinihintay ko" I got no response from Patrick he just stared at me. We both know Ethan won't agree on my decision.

Cecee was running to me, I knelt and welcome her in my arms.

"Mami, Im tired already" She yawned

"Baby I have a question muna ha? do you want to go back in the house na?" I was referring to NYC

"Yes! but I think I will miss it here Mami. I think ,I still want to stay" I smiled and hug her. We have the same decision and I love the fact that she love it here.

Sometimes naiisip ko na tatlong taon ba tong pinamalaki ko? Shes to smart for her age knowing that she hasn't entered school, yet.

I stood up

"Sige na, go inside na change your clothes. After eat ka muna punta muna si Mommy kay Dada ha?" Cecee just nod amd went inside

"Sasabihin mo na?" Patrick asked

"Kailan pa ba?" I took a deep breath and He patted my back. We both went inside

I was very thankful na andiyan si Patrick I don't even know kung ano nalang ako ngayon if wala siya.

I opened the door of my room it was so cold because of the non-stop AC. He was seated on the floor packing his things. I then sat on the bed. We haven't reconcile yet but, I have to try

"Babe, yung gamit ni Cecee naligpit ko na" He start

"Hmhmm."

"Babe? di ka pa ba magiimpake?" he looked at me with a on question his face

"Ethan. Babe, I want to stay"  his eyes widened

"Ha? No, nagusap na tayo diba? tatlong araw lang usapan natin" he stood up and crumpled his hair

I was shaking already

"you can stay with me naman Ethan here, if you want?"

"Marami pa tayong dapat asikasuhin dun sa New York,how about our works?"

"It can wait, we already have what we want naman Ethan diba?" My voice was so cold

"Are you sure? Kasi kung nasa atin na lahat di ka na babalik sa showbiz na yan"

"Ethan,di mo kasi na-"

"Maine,No! we will go back to New York,today"

"Kaya ba ayaw mo pumayag because of Ri-" I was cut off

and after that Cecee entered the room

"Dada! Let's play downstairs" My daughter then grab Ethan's right hand

"Pagisipan mo Maine" he whispered, then they left the room

I want to go back to my career.I know there will be a big possibility of seeing Rj but at least I am ready or just maybe ready to see him? It's going to be my choice not Ethan's

"Oh ano na? payag ba?"

"Ano pa ba sa tingin mo? nalilito na ako Patrick"

"Ano balak mong gawin?"

"I will still,stay" Patrick then hug me

We were also downstairs Ethan heard my last word then after he roled his eyes on me

"Celestine? come,sleep na"