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Zayn broke into a sweat. His heart pounded, and his hand began to feel clammy against his bouncing knee. He eventually rose to his feet and began to pace back...
Such a deadly 8 letter word. Something so unreal. So unexpected. So disappointing.
I know, that sounds too depressing and a little mean but honestly I don't want this.
What in the world was I going to do with a child at the age of 19? I am still new to the sex, still am ignorant and so innocent and yet here I am carrying a fetus. But the most terrifying thing was finding a way to tell Zayn, to discusse that we were going to have a baby and what if he doesn't believe me? Zayn is famous, a baby would seriously ruin his courier and because of me.
Fuck.
"How you holding up?"
I herd Drake casually walk in with a glass of water and a warm half smile apllied on his face. I reached over and received the glass out of his warm hands and sat up. I took a sip and left my lips damp, feeling how it gave me a little comfort.
"Not so well" I said a little upset.
"You need to relax, it's not as bad as you think" he said.
I starred at him, almost in a scowl.
"Not bad? Drake, I'm pregnant. Does that give you at least a slight of clue of how serious and deep shit I am in?"
"Okay, I get it. Your world might be falling apart but a baby is never a mistake. Probably the fact of you two took things to a whole other level too soon is but-"
"Cut the crap, I get where you are going and right now I don't want to hear it" I told him.
He only shrugged in a sigh, he had a straight line on his lips and starred at me, trying to figure out a way to comfort me but he knew that was impossible.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it in a bad way" he slowly spoke, "I trying to help here but I am as clueless ass you".
"There is nothing you could do" I said.
"I can support you. I mean, you are not alone and never will be while I am still alive" he smiled.
I couldn't help but smile back but just a half smile. His kind words made the intense atmosphere a little more calmer, which sort of made me feel less screwed. It was the fact that I hated of going through this alone and scared the hell out of me if Zayn wasn't going to take responsibility.
I didn't want to loose him, I mean, I barley have him and now loose him in less then a day?
"How am I going to tell Emma Drake?" I asked him feeling how he slowly caressed my hair while I layed on his lap.
"We have to waite and see if you truly are Sky".
I flipped over to face him and he looked down at me, fondly. Through those long eyelashes I can see how his deep worry and all the disappointment sort of just vanished.
"I took 6 pregnancy tests and all 6 came out positive infront of your eyes. How does that not convince you?"
"Well, sometimes they give wrong results".
"You can't manage to accept the fact you will be an uncle ha?" I asked him.
"This is as unreal to me as it is to you".
"Drake, this is actually happening. I am 100% pregnant"
Those words made me mentally wince at the gut kick I felt in pronouncing those strong words.
"Its still unreal. I never imagined this happening so soon".
I incredulously starred at him.
"At what age did you imagine me having a kid?".
"I don't know, 30?".
I scoffed.
"That's too old".
"It's a reasonable age and of course after marring".
Marriage.
It was then that got me thinking, was I ever going to get to experience walking to the alter in a white dress? Well, probably not soon now that I am expecting a kid.
"Drake, at what age do you consider getting married?".
Drake blinked, he looked down at me as if I had slapped him across his face, I guess the question was too unexpected but he soften it shortly after and thought about it.
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"I can't really respond to that. I mean, marriage is a big deal and not a joke". He sighed, "I guess you kind of know when you find that person who you find a type of shelter. You never want to leave her side, always wanting to know what she feels and make a better person out of you just to make her proud. You constantly think about her, repeatedly remember her face when she isn't around just to make yourself feel better and no matter how bad the arguments are, you still love her".
He left me speechless and thoughtful. I could identify myself in so many ways just by thinking about Zayn, he was my shelter. Probably I was ready for marriage, if I am able to spend the rest of my life with Zayn with out hiding out relationship then I was more then ready.
"Those were wise words" I mused.
Drake blinked from starring out in the distance and looked down at me in a smile. He caressed my hair and pinched my cheek ever so tenderly while I only cradled at his touch.
I wanted someone amazingly great for Drake, I didn't want him to be alone and see everyone around him move on. He deserved someone that would treat him as great as he was with me. Someone who would make him happy and the same someone that will fill him with children.
"We have to find a way to tell Emma" he sighed and all the comfort I suddenly cradled vanished.
"Oh God, this won't end well" I placed a pillow over my face and grunted.
"Well you can't hide it, at least not for around 3 months so..".
"You think that by that time I'll have a baby bump?" I immediately peeked aside from the pillow I held.
"I am no doctor but I have seen so many movies and I have learned that all pregnancies are different so, maybe?" he said uncertain.
"I don't want to tell her today. Its too much pressure and I am done passing out".
"Okay, we can tell her this week. I mean, you have plenty of time to think and figure out a very reasonable way to tell Emma" he said.
