Baby Steps (Z.M) Book One✔

~32~

"I'm so sorry darling" Zayn apologized.

I knitted my eyebrows in confusion, not getting what he meant. That minute, I over thinked and maybe even feared of what he was sorry for. Right when I was about to protest, I felt a feeling in my gut to hold in the interrogation.

"For what?"

"For being too busy. I have a shit load of interviews, music to record and photoshoots" he continued, "And um, also GiGi".

He said it so concerned, as if he knew he screwed up or tried to not make me feel bad. Although that didn't work at all, he made feel worse as soon as I herd her name. Like a slap across the face, baffled I felt that bittery taste in my mouth which I swallowed down.

"What about her" I said, dryly.

"Babe, I need you to hear me out" he said.

"Okay..."

He gave a very tiring and frustrated sigh that made me think how bad everything was going to get. Chills went down my spin, it invaded what was once the relief feeling I had to hear his voice which I cherished so badly. Now, all I prayed for was for an out of all of the drama.

"When I went back to my hotel, I was going with the plan of breaking up with Gigi and simply ending that false relationship. But my manager called and he told me that we were one of the famous couples that the audiences loved to see and that really made it harder for me".

I felt my heart drop into a steap cliff, literally hearing how it slowly started to give it lasts beats as it fell.

"I told him that I didn't care about that anymore, that I had a REAL relationship going on and he got pissed", Zayn continued, "Sky, what I am trying to say is that I promise you that this relationship I have with you will go on but for now you have to give me time to settle things"

"So, you are going to hide our relationship?" I told him, a little offended.

"When you say it that way,  you make me feel bad" he told me.

"Zayn, are you serious right now?" I asked and the cloud of tears began to creep up on me.

"I'm sorry baby, its not as easy as you think. I promise you that I will try my best to end the relationship but for now I have to stick with the program"

There wasn't much to say, if I told him I carried his child, everything would end for him. His courier was more important, he was after all a very VERY famous pop star. How could I be so selfish? I would feel worse if I see all his hard work  of his success simply brake apart and to live with that guilt wasn't in my plans.

"Zayn, I have to go" I said, "I'll text you later".

"Babe" he said, "Please, promise me your going to be okay".

"This isn't easy to just call it an 'okay' issue"

"I know, UGh! Crap, I hate myself for this".

"Don't, I should of seen this coming".

"What do you mean?" Zayn asked.

"It isn't possible to have a very healthy relationship with a famous pop star".

Zayn gave his second tiring sigh and strangly, I could imagine him scratch the back of his kneck.

"Don't start in having your doubts, I really want this relationship with you Sky." he told me, "there isn't a day I don't think or want you. Sexually and emotionally"

Okay, I totally had to give him credit for those soft words I absolutely needed to hear. Zayn managed to make me smile for the first time in this dark storm I stood under. He made me blush red, my heart instead of shattering, it only landed safely.

"Zayn, I really have to go" I told him, this time in the look out for Emma who must of noticed my absence.

"Okay, just text me as soon as possible okay? I can't live with you mad at me Babe".

"No, I'm okay. I understand, really" I told him, although deep down inside I was totally againts it.

"I love you".

"I love you more Zayn".

And the line suddenly went dead, he hunged up shortly after a soft chuckle.

I love you, how in earth was I going to to tell him? He absolutely needed to know, I wanted this family with him so badly but all this drama held me back. As if I was in chains, really thick and heavy raddling chains.

After a minute of meditating, I encourged myself to walk back inside and finally end this issue once and for all. As I closed the door behinde me, I stopped my tracks to the presence of Emma leaning on the coutner with her arms crossed over her chest, with a very serious face.

She surprised me, I gave a small gasp but nothing more than that. Emma looked very upset but she tried to hide it under that  serious face she tried to held. It still broke me inside to see her so disappointed, I felt it wasn't going to be easy to get over it.

"Emma" I said in a sigh.

"I guess the only way to talk this through, is alone" She told me.

"Okay, lets talk" I willingly agreed.

"Not hear".

"Then where?" I told her.

"Lets go for a drive" she stood up straight and grabbed her car keys out of her pocket. I guess that was a sign of me to follow her out of the kitchen, which I did seconds later she did. Emma went straight for the front door, totally ignoring Alex and Drake who sat patiently in the living room. Drake gave me an encouraging half smile, I could see the concern that his shiney eyes reflected. Alex only gave Emma a pat on the back and then one to me as we passed.

"Don't worry guys, tonight I won't kill her" Emma looked back before walking out of the house. I shurgged and gave her an eyeroll.

"Be careful" Alex said.

"Lets go Sky" Emma gestured me to walk out first as she held on the door knob, after I obeyed, she closed the door behind her.

"Em, you are making me feel as if I am going to be annihilated or something" I told her as we both walked up to her car.

"Its the guilt thats eating you alive Sky" Emma said as she put her shades on and we both got in her car.

I absolutely had no clue of what she had in mind but something told me not to fear. We never really had girl talks. Mostly just chats but a deep girl talk never happen to accure in our lives. I didn't know how to start or with what to spill that my anxiety was begging to get worse.

"Alright Sky, before I begin the most epic integration of your life" Emma began to say as she backed off our drive through, "I want to apologize for looseing my head back there"

I starred at her, taken for immediate surprise to see how calm she was talking to me. Not knowing what to say, I simply smile at my sister.

"You gave me quiet a scare".

"Sky, to suddenly receive such unexpected news of your baby sister being pregnant isn't something to get lite for" She told me.

"I'm not a baby Ema".

"You are to me, so suck it up".

I chuckled and smiled down to the sweaty hands I rested on my legs. So far, it was a pelasant talk I desperately wished for it not to end badly.

"Now, we both know what's the most obvious question here" Emma said.

Oh grate, here we go again.

"Emma, don't-".

"Let me finish" she interrupted and held her hand up, "I understand its a little frightening for you to tell me who the father is, which we will discuss, but for now I just want to talk okay?".

"Talk about what, exactly?" I anxiously asked.

"I don't know, about how it all ended up this way Sky. I mean, I just want to solve all this just like Mom would of done it, okay?" she said to me and I only starred at her, softening my tense face followed by a shrug.

I had to give her credit, she was like my mother after all ....