for the both of us

if i died

           

If  I died, would you remember me?

Maybe sit by my grave and cry for weeks;

Maybe realize that you can't forget my smile,

And maybe remember my rosy red cheeks.

If I died, would you wish me back?

Remembering the times that I was happy,

Guilt washing over you like a tidal wave;

Because now I'm not with you, sadly.

If I died, would you regret hurting me?

Blame yourself for the pain you brought;

Maybe be sorry for being the death of me,

The memory of me leaving you in thoughts.

If I died, would you wish you'd love me less?

Hoping that the pain would all vanish;

The pain of me not being there and alive,

The pain of the reality that I was damaged.

If I died, would you wish you'd love me more?

Thinking that if you did, maybe I'd still be there;

Maybe you'd cry to the heavens to bring me back,

And this time you'll change, you'll care.