Love, means Fight or Set free ?

Chapter 11

MILES

Everything was fine... Iba talaga siya, he's always vocal to what his feeling at hindi ko maitatanggi yun dahil napakatransparent niya at ramdam na ramdam ko yun.

Halos ayoko ng maniwala, everything was just too good to be true at lagi niya naman akong pinipitik sa noo pag sinasabi ko yan sa kaniya at bigla niya ko'ng yayakapin...

"Ang kulit mo talaga, totoo'ng lahat ng 'to" lagi niyang sagot sakin.

"You're always making things look so complicated" sabi pa niya one time.

"Isn't enough that you love me and I love you... SO.MUCH.? or..." ang tagal niyang huminto bago niya sinundan with his sad face "or maybe, you don't love me" and with that, halos mabali na yung leeg ko sa kakailing.

"mahal kita, 'di ko lang mapigilan na isipin minsan na 'di tayo bagay, na there's someone who's really made for you" sabi ko habang nakayuko dahil nahihiya ako.

lagi niyang pinaparamdam sakin na mahal niya ko habang ako? ito, puro doubt.

kaya ako naman yung yumakap sa kanya, ng mahigpit " I'm sorry... I love you so much. I just can't help it but to be insecure"

kumunot yung noo niya "Insecure?"

"yeah" maikli kong sagot sa kaniya

"why insecure? maganda ka naman ah."

" 'di mo naman maintindihan e."

"I love you, okay!? and I will always be inlove with you." sabi niya, as if he assure that it makes me comfort and I think it is.

days had past, months. he's always been in my house and so do I in his house. mabait yung Daddy niya sa'kin pati parents ko sa kanya, lagi lang masaya not until I met his mother.

nakakaintimidate, parang napaka professional... hindi man lang ako nginingitian feeling ko ayaw niya sakin.

kaya nagLielow ako. binawasan ko na pagpunta sa kanila, nagdadahilan na ko pag niyaya niya ko. minsan nakokonsensya na ko kaya pumapayag ako kahit nakakatakot yung mommy niya. ngingitian niya ko minsan and I feel that was just only for the effect.

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ang bilis ng araw, graduation na namin. nagkita kita kami sa labas ng venue, at pagdating ko andun na si charles with casey. lately parang lagi na silang magkasama, nagaasaran pa pagdating ko which is normal naman sa kanila but there is something na nawi-weirduhan ako, I don't know what it is.

ilang minuto pa, dumating na din si Ariel and lastly, basty with his parents. Ito na naman yung kabang nararamdaman but not because of basty, his mother.

hindi ako masyadong dumidikit kay basty pero siya yung kulit ng kulit habang yung mommy niya nakatingin samin, lalo akong dinaluhan ng kaba.

bigayan na ng diploma with the ussual background music... and calling our name one by one.

"Charles H. Garcia..."

"Brylle luke M. Montenor..."

ang ganda talaga ng pangalan niya, napapangiti na lang talaga ako.

"Ariel V. Pintor ..." 

and so on with the boys until...

"and John Joash A. Zamora." last pala siya sa lalaki. bigla siyang tumingin sakin sabay ngiti kaya nginitian ko din siya, sa dami ng tao, sakin pa ? bigla akong napatingin kay basty, halos masamid ako nang nakita kong nakatingin siya sakin, kaya mas pinalapad ko yung ngiti ko para ngitian siya kaso naging OA yung ngiti ko, ang awkward tuloy.