The Madness Arising; Book I-Mentality: The Story of Iris

A Demon's Whisper

I sat there almost all night thinking. He's mine. I have him wrapped around my finger and now nothing can change that. We are one now. Our love is connected. After this sudden realization I came to my senses and checked the time. 2:28am. I'm not sure what made me think of it, but suddenly a beautiful song was playing in my head. I went to the stereo and put my mom's CD in. It had a few of her recorded performances in it. I turned to Track 7 and I sat at my beautiful piano and played along with the tune.. Once the words started, I sang them

"I never meant to cause you any sorrow. I never meant to cause you any pain."

The words flew out of my mouth to the rythm and tears streamed down my face. I knew that song. Purple Rain by Prince. Ella and I used to sing it with our mother before bedtime.

"I only wanna see you laughing in the purple rain. Purple rain. Purple rain. Purple rai--"

I felt the tears fall from my face. My voice was cracking and I wasn't able to keep going. My mothers voice was putting too much emotion in me. I carried on with playing the song, but I didn't sing. I let my mother do it for me. Her voice was soft and angelic. I missed her. As the song ended, I shut my piano and walked to mine and Ella's room. I quietly grabbed a pillow and my lockbox and attempted to creep out to the living room.

"You know you sound just like her."

"Yeah...."

"I miss her too. If she were here, she would be awfully proud of you."

"Goodnight, Ella."

"Goodnight."

I closed the door behind me and sat my pillow next to me on the couch. I sat there staring at my lockbox. I knew I would hate myself in the morning but I needed it. I opened it up and took out a cigarette along with my bottle of whiskey I had bought the other night. I poured a shot and stared at it. This was my life now. A tear fell from my eye and I could feel the burning sensation of depression hitting me hard. I took a deep drag of my cigarette and blew the smoke into the glass. It floated above the drink for a second before dissapearing. I wiped my tears away and turned my attention to my cigarette. I stared at the burning cherry.

"You're burning your life away I hope you know that."

I looked up to see the puppet girl again. She wore a black tattered cocktail dress and matching heels. She looked like she was trying to look older.

"Yeah? So?"

"Do you not value what you have Iris Victoria?"

"....No...."

"Oh. Well okay then."

I looked up to see her walking to the kitchen. She grabbed the largest knife she could find and headed towards mine and Ella's room. Then it hit me. I value my life plenty. I value my beautiful twin sister. I value my memory of my mother. I value it all. This doll was about to take it away from me. Before she could open the door, I grabbed her. As I did, the room turned black and I was back in the stupid dream room.

"Stop it! I DO value my family. I DO value my life. WHY can't you leave me alone!? I HATE you!!"

Suddenly she stood up and her eyes were red. She was crying.

"I'm you. Why can't you see that. I only show up because I know you're hurting."

"I'm not hurting. I'm just fine."

"NO YOU'RE NOT. YOU HAVEN'T BEEN FINE SINCE THE DAY JOEY DIED. YOU HAVEN'T BEEN FINE SINCE THE SECOND BEFORE YOU SAW THE MEDICAL TEAM PLACE THE BLANKET OVER JOEY'S FACE. YOU HAVEN'T BEEN FINE SINCE THE DAY---"