Belle

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Belle

"Girls. We have a problem on our hands" Jas claps her hands, gathering everyone's attention. "With the stress of finals we neglected to notice that Belle faced something every one of us has" Her usually mischievous face is serious for once and I can't help but wonder how these gorgeous girls with seemingly perfect boyfriends faced "Heartbreak".

Everyone's eyes snap to mine, but I simply lower my gaze. I'm not good at confrontation anymore, I just want everyone to ignore me. 

"Belle you know we're all here for you so it's up to you. You wanna tell us everything or do you want to just go straight to forgetting it?" She asks, raising a bottle of vodka at me. I take a deep breath "I guess I should tell someone, keeping it inside means I can't get over it" I admit. 

"Once upon a time there was a girl called Belle. She was faced with a challenge against her will, to tame the Beast so that he could become the prince again. It was hard at first, he was intolerable and seemed to want to make her life as hard as possible. But one day he opened up to her even slightly, showed her a side of him that hadn't been seen in a very long time and she started to fall for this Beast. Not much was progressing between them until she stumbled onto his secrets and ran away from him, scared. He chased her and it was there that he revealed that he was in fact not a Beast, but a beautiful prince who knew exactly what to say. Belle fell head over heels in love with him and he with her. On Christmas day they confessed to each other and that day was the best of her life. But the next day the prince got a message from the evil king. He wanted the Prince to return to the far away lands with him. Belle was sad but she understood that he wanted to return. But the Beast reappeared" I feel some tears drip from my eyes 

"He- he revealed that he was not a kind prince but instead was evil like the king. Like father like son. To him money was more important than anything, including the girl he supposedly loved. He crushed the girl's heart with harsh words and left her in a pile on the floor. Belle's life went on, and she tried to forget him, but everything she heart was about him. How he'd bedded so many other girls, how he was so rich and successful and handsome. And Belle faded into the background, just wanted to get on with her life without having her mind haunted by memories of the Prince that could of been. One day she'll be successful" 

I look up to see the other girls with tears in their eyes too as they all rush towards me in a giant uncomfortable hug. I laugh slightly tearfully. "Guys" I croon.

"That was so beautiful" Ariel cries from somewhere inside the swarm of girls "But so sad" she finishes, wriggling out of the mass. 

"I'm guessing the boy who broke your heart was Adam" Mulan emerges next. I nod shyly. 

"Who knew he had it in him" Aurora escapes the hug "You know, a heart" She shrugs and I laugh slightly.

"I'm still not sure he does" I retort. 

Snow comes off of the bundle to look at me "What did he say... you know. When it ended?" she asks softly. 

Jasmine stays nuzzled to my side so I simply wrap my arms back around her, needing the support honestly. 

"He said that he wasn't sure he wanted to return to his family and so I just suggested the alternative. I wasn't pushy, I was just stating the option of getting a student loan and going to college to make his own name. He said that he doesn't want to be a nobody, second best, like me" I wince like he's saying it to me all over again. 

The girls gasp in outrage, and Jasmine finally speaks up "Are you fucking kidding me?" she sits up with rage on her face.

"You're the opposite of nobody. You represent everybody, your every action is for the benefit of somebody else. And because of that everybody would pick you first in a heartbeat because you're the vision of an ideal person and don't try and correct me because you won't see it but everyone else does. Belle, I think every single one of us here aspires to be like you. It's anything but a negative" Her cheeks are flushed with rage as the others shout encouragement. 

"And he knows that. He's not stupid, he was the smartest person at this damned school. So why did he lie?" she asks. I feel my chest constrict at even the chance of him not meaning it, cursing my traitorous heart. 

"I'm calling him. You all. Shush" she warns, pulling out her phone and putting it on loudspeaker. 

"I told you to delete my number" his voice is emotionless if slurred and I wince even at the sound of it. Mulan clutches my hand encouragingly. 

"I don't care. I want answers" she growls in response.

"Urgh fucking fine, let me go somewhere quiet" he's drunk. The realisation seems to hit us all at once. He'd never drunk before, but I guess this is part of his new life. 

"What do you want?" he finally asks, voice wobbly. 

"I want to talk about Belle" She says straight up "And don't you dare hang up on me or I'll tell your dad you're drunk" she rushes.

"Why are you such a bitch. What do you want to say?" He sighs, sounding defeated. At least that's some emotion. 

"I want to ask why you broke her heart like that" Jas asks softly. It's silent at first, and then there's a strange noise. Is he... is he crying? We all exchanged shocked glances. 

"God I love her" he sobs "I miss her. But I'm bad Jasmine. And she's good. I've tried everything to get over her. So she can find someone who deserves her instead. But nothing works" his voice is somewhat pleading as tears stream down my face, my hand covering my mouth. 

"I drink, I smoke things I probably shouldn't. Jas, no girl can fuck like she can" I blush at that as the girls all grin at me, impressed. 

"I just, I love her. And I wish I could have her. But she deserves better than a fuck up like me" I gesture for Jas to pass me the phone, which she does hesitantly, allowing me to take it out the room. 

"Adam" I sigh into the phone.

"I miss you" He sighs into the phone. Then groans "You've been listening the whole time haven't you?" he asks rhetorically.

"I can tell you one thing Adam. I don't want anyone but you" I admit in a hushed voice "You hurt me and I wish you realised that I don't want anyone but you. I love you Adam" his breath hitches 

"You're my opposite and it works out. We balance each other out. I'm run down and tired of missing you Adam" I admit softly.

"Baby I miss you. I love you. But I'm not right for you"

"Stop putting yourself down!" I demand suddenly "The you I got to know was extraordinary. You can't tie yourself down based on what people expect of you. Sure, most of our school hated you in the end because you pushed them all away. But school's over Adam. We're out" I state. 

"You've graduated?" His voice is confused "Shit how long has it been?" He asks.

"Way too long" I laugh wryly.

"I don't want to have to do this over the phone. I want to feel you in my arms. I want to kiss you. I want to show you how sorry I am" his voice is deep and he sounds mildly more sober.

"Then come and find me Beast. It's the least you can do" I finish tiredly before hanging up on him and going back into Jas's room, downing half the bottle of vodka in one burning go.