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my bones
my soul
the essence of my existence
is
splintering
breaking
colliding
into each other
merging to form 
this monstrous creature
that even the greatest minds cannot fathom.

yet
you sit at the sidelines
superficial worry plastered on your face

Are you okay?

WELL OF COURSE NOT

i whisper under my breath
or maybe I won't.
as I am told to
keep my mouth shut.
i answer with a smile
the smile carved on my face

yet
around me
are the shattered remains of
myself

i can feel them
broken shards of myself
tearing into my soul
but that doesn't matter

to you, at least.

you
just
keep
on
watching from the sidelines
away from
this
monster
that
you created

your calculating eyes
full of deceitfulness
and sugar coated lies

every word you say
doesn't make the pain go away
you just think it's a phase
some emo pre-teen craze

but NO
everything that you say
hurts me like thousands of hundreds of razor-sharp knives
tearing into my flesh

no

NO

NO

I WILL NOT BOW DOWN TO YOU

DO NOT THINK THAT BECAUSE I AM YOUNG I KNOW NOTHING

DO NOT THINK THAT BECAUSE I AM YOUNG I CAN DO NOTHING

DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE ME

DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE WHAT I CAN AND WILL DO

my eyes,
glistening with
cold
hard
seething
hatred

yet
my eyes,
are brimming with tears
threatening to fall over the edge

but
really
they shouldn't be shed over the likes of you

yet
around me
are the broken shards of myself
my past
present
future

all these long gone memories
of pillow forts
hide-and-seek
sleepovers
flow down the river of my youth
from the wounds you have created

now, i have not the words
maybe i never will
maybe it's better this way

after all, what's the point?
you never really listened anyway.

a/n:
I'm sorry about my long absence from wattpad everyone, I had a bad case of writer's block:-/ thank you for all your support; means a lot to me:-)