King Of My Kingdom

Part 3

Fuck I lost control I couldn't keep it in. Oh dear God, what have I done?! Those words began clouding my judgment.
When I became aware of my surroundings I was embarrassed everyone was staring at me mostly with concern or pity in their eyes except for one she marched over to me.

"Wow, I knew you hated me. First the throne and Mom and Dad's love, next my spot in the man cave, then my powers, and now you tried to roast me up like rotisserie chicken?! Unbelievable"

" I wish you'd lose your powers and die that's how much I hate you"  she spat out and ran out to the elevator and Henry ran with her. Jace calmed me down to my level " so that's what this is about my power, she wants to have my power she will get my powers. I'm doing all this for her".  I yelled " Genny come here" he motioning opening his arms for a hug. "I'm with Ray and Schwoz what you're doing to your body isn't healthy and I'm tired of watching you hurt yourself and for what to get his of your powers." "You are my best friend and I love you we all love you even Char," Jace said softly while cuddling with me I loved it when we cuddle. I felt safer than ever, my nerves were gone and I felt at ease. "I don't want wanna hear or see you trying to get rid of your powers or trying to constantly please everyone while l displeasing yourself. And I say constantly because you are, come over later we need to talk ok?" He asked looking at me with calmness in his brown orbs yet with a stern voice. "Ok" I replied "And Erica will be here soon. I contacted her and she said she's on her way, so please relax."

When I first got my powers I was inexperienced and didn't have any control of my powers and it was overwhelming. The powers control me because I was afraid of them and it led to me accidentally shorting out any electronic device or appliance I touch which led to me accidentally destroying the man cave. I felt horrible that I've destroyed the man cave I worked my ass off to get it rebuilt I may have told a little white lie to my mother my father but I wasn't exactly all lying I mean I did have a job and the building burns down so they offered to pay me 20k and my sister 20k. My parents wanted us to know what responsibility felt like even though we lived comfortably. They wanted us to get jobs and gave us chores at home as well when we've fulfilled our responsibilities we got paid.

So, Ray introduced a metahuman named Erica to help me learn to control my electrical powers and my new abilities. She became a second mother to me she helps me when my anxiety and helps me emotionally. Since my life changed six months ago and Mom and Dad left for Royal duties I've most of my girl talks with her.

I'll admit when I first met her I resented her and told her that I didn't need help that I could do it myself. But when I was at my most vulnerable she brought me back she taught me how to manifest my powers. When Jace and I got into an argument I lost control and became angry because of it my body was surrounded by a glowing electrical aura with lightning-like spikes on my head and back. She taught me how to control it and she created a safe place for me in my head where I could go when I feel overwhelmed. This place is impenetrable and it can sustain my abilities.

She taught me how to absorb electromagnetic energy in the Earth's atmosphere. And most importantly
She also taught me that when I feel negative emotions or a fight within myself my abilities become involuntary. I need to control my powers not fear it.

"Now I know damn well you're not trying to " get rid" of your powers. After I told you no" She said with a mixture of anger and disappointment while coming out of the elevator."Lil girl what have I told you about messing around and trying to get rid of your powers. Each time you do something to get rid of them you messed them up, messing yourself up at the same time causing a commotion. Baby girl I've told you your powers are here to stay they chose you for a reason. Though it wasn't the way you expect it to happen, you need to accept it and let this baggage go. It's  bringing you down I can see it in you, you don't have to hide anything speak to me." She said as her voice became softer while she held my hands.
"I know you and your sister have been having a hard time lately but baby girl it is not your fault. Look at me and promise me you won't ever try to get rid of your powers anymore, it's damaging you inside and out. You need to let yourself heal, stop being so hard on your self, you just got your powers a few months ago you need to heal and not just physically I need mentally and emotionally" she said cutting me off
Else you'll be a spiraling mess now stop messing with them. You need to believe in yourself that you can do this. You just saw what happened because you were trying to get rid of your powers, giving your emotions to get the best of you in the situation was is horrific you almost passed out. Now you need to listen to me little girl I'm only gonna repeat myself this last time need to stop messing with your powers and trying to get rid of them it's not going to work." She said with that twinkle in her eye I knew she wasn't kidding around. Though she isn't my biological mother doesn't mean she can't put me in my place when she needs to which she does and I appreciate it.

I smiled at her with a teary eye " oh come over here you big baby" she motioned for me to give her a hug. My mother wasn't here right now with me and I needed a mother's hug. It's different when you hug a mother especially a woman you have a connection with. I feel comfortable and safe around her I felt as though nothing could hurt me at that moment I felt at peace I felt like a baby. Her big baby.