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Chapter 6

As i walk in to my condo the first thing i do is strip and head to the shower.I wish i knew what to wear but i don't and thats annoying. I hate it when i feel all flustered and confused.The soul reason for that is that doofus of a man and to make matters worse just thinking about him makes me feel like there's a birds' playground in my tummy.Pushing the feeling aside i decide to look for whatever tickles my fancy i mean i have never worried about what i wear so why start now.At the back of my mind i know the reason happens to have very alluring chocolate eyes and stands at 6 foot.

My stomach growls reminding me that i last drank coffee in the morning but decide against eating since i am going to dinner anyway.I finally decide on some boyfriend jeans and a white blouse with a cute tie by my neck and pair all that with black comfortable heals.I need the height honestly.Doing my make up quickly i decide to just do light make up as usual and clear my room which has turned into a mess somehow.

Just as i finish the door bell rings and i get my black clutch heading to the door.As i open the door he gives me one of his heart stopping, stomach flipping smiles and i am a goner. He looks really good with his black t-shirt and blue jeans paired with brown boots.I should honestly say i can ignore my morals and pull him into the condo but then i remember he's still my extremely stubborn sexy boss.

Miss Cabe you do clean up good hey he says . Thank you Sir gets to be my response and he raises an eyebrow and replies i am certain that we can leave being formal at work? Sounds more like a question than a suggestion and i just roll with it.Shall we,he motions me to his car and i must say it's beautiful i just stop and admire the beautiful creation of the black lamborgini aventador.I hear a door open thats when i get out of my car induced stupor. After he opened the door and did all the gentlemen stuff i somehow feel like he's a bit different than i originally thought and i am ashamed of myself.

We go to a food carnival place and its amazing.In middle New York as i refer to it and i feel like i am alive again.The decor and atmosphere is just amazing i am in awe.Mathew has been the perfect gentlemen the whole evening.Somehow as we eat and talk i realise we have a lot in common,from our need to read to our very introverted personalities.What's funny is that we both just want to be left alone in our bubble and its awesome.I have never laughed or talked this much in my life than what i have done today and i feel absolutely great and relaxed.Lets just say my tummy will not be happy in the morning.Before i know it we have spent 5 hours here and it's midnight when i check my phone and decide it was time for me to get home.As we leave i have a whole new way of looking at him besides the obvious wink wink.He is an amazing person who cares about his family from what i know he only has his granddad.

I wanted to ask about his parents but had no guts and didn't want to overstep my boundaries.I look at him while he drives and this man sitting next to me is an enigma.Staring is very rude Alex i hear, oops i got caught starring but to my defense which i shall not say out loud he is very handsome and it should be a crime not to look at him. Without replying i just look the other direction pretending i didn't hear him.He laughs like really laugh out loud and i just smile secretly knowing i made that happen.My inner goddess is rather thrilled.Shes busy dancing in a thong.All good things sadly must come to an end as we arrive at my place he walks me to the door.Thank you Matthew for a wonderful evening i say, i had so much fun and it was amazing to get a different view of you.Likewise Alexandria i had so much fun too.When i am about to turn to unlock my door he pulls my arm and engulfs me in a hug and i tense,he seems to read me and whispers in my ear it's okay i won't hurt you then i reluctantly loosen up a bit as i let his words sink in.After what seems to be seconds although i am pretty sure it was minutes he lets go.I feel cold and uneasy and i pray that it will not bring back the nights i would rather love to forget and dread fills me.Goodbye Mathew i force the words out.

Are you okay Alex and i reply with a forced smile and say sure but he doesn't seem to be convinced but before he leaves he tells me to call him if i need help or when i finally decide to tell him what's wrong.As he goes i enter my condo and break down.I don't want to remember but i do.The day i was kidnapped and humiliated in front of so many man who rejoiced and had sexual pleasures from my pain.I will never forget that but i have somehow moved on and i hate to think that him caring about me has brought on the nightmares i haven't had i years.I don't go to bed today from fear that i will dream about them and i hate this feeling of being powerless.I am strong i start chanting in my head over and over again.I don't sleep that night,fearing that i will dream and i am terrified of my dreams because they are too real.