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Chapter 7

I woke from sleep only to realise i slept by my door clutching my knees and i hate that it they still have control or some of it.I shake that away.I get up and go take a shower for my slow day or i might drive out to see my mum i haven't seen her in a while and she's starting to complain about it.It's a 30 minutes drive to her house,as i get there i just feel at home and i love the smell of baked cookies and the crazy delights she still seems to keep.

Just because she bakes don't let that fool you she is a total diva and loves fashion.Acts my age and always says am uptight and i will only live once and i obviously don't agree.I just love to live in my head that's all its more interesting anyway.Mum,mum i call out as i walk through the house.Bunny is that you she says and i reply with a no mum you only have one child and she laughs . It's so bubbly and inviting and i can't help but jump into her waiting arms.I know i am old but i love my mum and she has been my best friend since i can remember especially at school when i was the weird kid everyone loved to make fun of.Mum i missed you i say honestly and she goes me too bunny,me too.How have you been lately, wheres dad i ask.

"He left to do whatever i am really not concerned she says".Don't let that response fool you they still act like horny teenagers and i am and always will be forever scarred. Anyway come help me finish cooking and tell me all about your life lately she says. I know i am in for it because my mum has always been on about me getting a husband to make me happy blah blah blah. Mum there's not much to tell really,i am a workaholic remember i reply giving her my most sweet smile and she's not buying it. I don't want to say anything about Mathew because she will get the wrong ideas.Anyway why are we cooking so much food mother when it's just the two of us? I ask . She's grinning and that's not good atleast from my point of view and i am hoping there's no blind date again.Yeah you heard me again, my mother is relentless and i love her but half the time or maybe a quarter is what makes me bury myself in my work.My dad has tried to help me but he might end up sleeping on the couch,as if (que eye roll)

Soooo who's coming i say giving her my most business look and you know what she just laughs and replies remember that boy Kalum who used to live down our street well i met his mother and well they are both coming for dinner.Can i describe the feeling i have now , one word puke thats all i will say about him.You see the thing is i used to have a crush like at some point i thought i loved him but once he realised that i had a crush,well he made sure that i was ridiculed for it.Worse i had zero confidence so after all that i hated him and vowed to never let him make me feel ashamed of myself again.I think i need water i say to mum and she goes what's wrong.I know i should have told her but i can't bring myself to make her suffer.So I just say my throat has been feeling a bit too dry for the past two days and i have no idea why coz am not sick.

Awww my baby go and rest a bit i will wake you up before the guest arrive and i go lie in my old room and i fall asleep thinking about Matthew and how hes spending his day.I miss him i think he makes me feel things in my heart. I don't know whether i should hate it or love it.Im so confused..

Bunny, bunny i hear a soft voice Sweety wake up the guests will be here in 30 minutes and i feel like hiding but i have to be strong.Okay i'm up let me just refresh and il be down in a second.As i walk down to the kitchen i hear the voice i had hoped to never hear and i'm not the little 16 year old me but some habbits seem to never die, with as much courage i can conjure i walk with a smile on my face and greet people.I stop in my tracks and well he's always been handsome but nothing prepared me for the whole polished look but still i can't help myself and comparing Mathew to him.Lets just say he's got nothing on Mathew when he's all muscle and all Mathew is just simply beautiful, tall and lean *sigh* .I am seriously going to lose it if i continue like this.Slapping myself out of this stupor i extend my hand and say hi.He laughs like really laugh and i want to rip his throat off.My little Poorbear you have grown to a beautiful little woman.I want to punch something and it has a smile on its face.I don't know why he wants to play the childish games and I'm too old for his crap.It annoys me that he still gets to me.

He's the devils little thingy but maybe not that much maybe there's a little bit of exaggeration there but he's beyond annoying.Dinner was amazing i had so much fun *note the sacasm*I hardly ate because my stomach was in notes and Kalum and his mother stayed a bit and talked for about 30 minutes until i claimed i was tired and had to heard to bed.All in all it was not too bad but did mum have to invite Kalum here.Anyway i am going back to my house tomorrow but first things first i have to leave after mums amazing breakfast she's The Goddess of breakfast.After clean up and what not i make a bee line for my room shouting goodnight mum and dad i love you before she asks me questions i would rather not answer.