All or Nothing - JhoBea

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Bea's Pov

Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light.
Because of my bestfriend I laugh harder, cry less, and smile a lot. My best friend (Jho) may not be my sister by blood but she's my sister by heart. I think I'm in love with my best friend but I need to keep it to myself because I couldn't stand to lose her. I look at her as my best friend until I realized that I LOVE HER.

Thank's to Jho, Kahit papaano nagiging masaya ako, kahit papaano nakakalimutan ko si Jana. Nung magpunta kami sa Luneta Park para ikwento yung problema ko, pinagaan niya yung sakit na nararamdaman ko. Now, I think I'm ready to move on to Jana. But it doesn't mean sasabihin ko kay Jho yung nararamdan ko para sa kanya. I'm scared to tell to her because I treat her as my sister. I'm scared to say because if she don't feel the same, our friendship would be over.

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"Bei are you okay? May iniisip ka ba?" jho said while we are in my room drinking shake.

"Ah... wala naman. I'm just thinking about someone. Someone na baka pwedeng mawala saken kapag sinabi ko yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya."

"Hala siya, in love ka na agad sa iba. Halos 2 weeks palang nakakaraan nung ikwento mo saken yung pag bebreak niyo ni Jana diba." jho said

"I Love Jana and it doesn't mean I'm thinking about someone e mahal ko na ng lubusan. This person na iniisip ko, iba siya."

"Panong iba bei? You ha, you're being to much attached falling in love to someone." jho said

"Jho what if may kaibigan ka, pano kung na fall siya sayo? Anong gagawin mo?

"If na fall din ako sa kanya maybe we can still be together more than friends. Pero kung hindi ko siya gusto I think magbabago na yung pagtingin ko sa kanya."

Jho said na nagpakaba sa puso ko. Tama siya, what if hindi kami pareho ng nararamdaman. What if may iba siyang mahal at magkaibigan lang talaga kami.

"Why bei, are you falling in love with me? 😂" jho said while laughing.

"Huuuh... No... You... You're not pretty enough para magustuhan ko Jho,"

"Grabe siya saken oh 😯 Oh sino bang tinutukoy mo?"

"Ah... never mind. Nabasa ko lang yun sa wattpad and I'm just asking you kung ano yung mararamdaman mo."

"Nagbabasa ka pala ng wattpad, di hulata ha." pangiinis ni jho.

"I'm reading Jho!"

Jho's Pov

"I'm reading Jho!"

Sigaw ni bea ng may mapagusapan kami. I think napikon siya sa pang iinis ko.

"Easy Bei, I'm just kidding"

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After that night sa bahay nila Bea. Monday today at maaga kaming nagising para makapag attend ng training. At hindi ko parin nakakalimutan yung sinabi niya saken, What if kung ma fall saken ang isang kaibigan ko? Seriously, kung ibang kaibigan I think magbabago yung paningin ko sa kanya pero still magkaibigan parin kami. Pero kung siya (Bea) yung ma fall saken. I think more than friends na kami ngayon because we have the same feeling. Pero malabo yata yon, iba yung gusto ni Bea at hindi ako.

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Bea's Pov

Nasa training kami ngayon ni Jho, everytime na maalala kong na fafall na ako sa kanya lumalayo ako. Hindi dahil ayoko siyang makasama. Kundi dahil takot akong malaman niya, takot akong lumayo siya, at takot akong mawala siya.

"ok see you again tomorrow" coach tai said dahil tapos na kaming mag training.

Lumapit saken si Jho, dahil after training lagi kaming sabay umalis ni Jho at bumabalik sa dorm. Nang makalapit siya saken, di ko alam ang isasagot ko sa paanyaya ng umalis na kami ng BEG.

"Uy... bei, What's your problem? Are you okay? Tara na.

"Huuuuh... Ah... yes I'm just fine. Napagod lang siguro ako. Let's go na.

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After training and all, were here at our room now and ready to sleep for tomorrow's training. But I can't sleep thinking about falling in love to Jho.

Maybe I'm scared because she mean more to me than any other person. For the first time I've found someone I hate leaving. I've found someone that accepts me for who I AM and doesn't tell me I need to change. I think I've found someone whom I fall in love with but I've found someone that I don't know if she's in love with me or if we have the same feelings to each other. I accidentally fall in love with my best friend. I'm falling inlove with her more and more each day.

Pero takot akong malaman niya.
Dahil takot akong mawala siya...

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