All or Nothing - JhoBea

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Jho's Pov

Almost one month nalang mag start na ang UAAP Volleyball.  I'm excited, para ipakita namen yung mga ginagawa namen kapag training lalo na ngayong wala na si Ate Ly. At dahil hindi rin ako gaanong nakapaglaro noong Shakey's VLeague, so I'm excited din na makalaro ulit with my teammates. We are willing to prove sa mga UAAP fans na kahit may mawala handa parin kaming lumaban ng buong puso manalo o matalo man.
We've been through a lot already and have many more games to win and I know we will made it together. Some people will hate us but how strong we stand is what makes us. In GOD's name we are strong, together we will become unstoppable.

Pero bakit ganon, I don't know if bea is thinking about this coming UAAP or about someone. Tulala lang siya palagi simula nung monday training namen. Minsan pa napapansin ko parang nilalayuan niya ako. Ganoon na ba talaga kalala yung problema niya para iwasan ako. Sinabi naman na niya saken lahat noon nung nasa Park kame except for this someone na iniisip niya. Is that someone is the reason kung bakit ba siya nagkakaganyan or talagang sabog lang siya this past few days. Kapag naman tinatanong ko siya lagi lang niyang sagot is ok lang siya pero alam kong hindi. I know bea, meron siyang problema.

"Bei baba na para makapag break fast na tayo."

"Mauna ka na Jho, Sunday naman ngayon kaya ok lang naman kahit di pa ako bumaba." bea said.

"Sure ka? Bei remember if you have problem I'm just here. Don't forget it's you and me vs. the problem."

"I'm fine Jho, baba kana don"

"Sige, sunod ka ha."

"Sige"

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Bea's Pov

After Jho leave me in our room, I don't know bakit tumulo yung luha ko. I don't know kung bakit ako nagkakaganito sa kanya. But one thing ayokong mawala siya. It's like I want her to know about this but I don't want to tell to her. I fall in love to people I can't call mine.

"Is it all or nothing at all
when you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends"

My phone says when my playlist ends to a song All or Nothing.

Now I need to choose it's either ALL or NOTHING.

I need to sacrifise something but to sacrife our 5 years friendship. I can't!
But also not to know her side if we have the same feeling is like I'm leaving to a world full of fear.

At the end of the day I will still choose what is the right thing to do and will accept no matter what happen.

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Jho's Pov

I will eat my breakfast as fast as I can para makabalik na ako sa room namen. Alam ko namang di siya susunod dito. Pipilitin ko siya na sabihin sa aken yung problema at kung ano man yon handa akong makinig. I'll care for her until the end, because we'll always be friends.

*Fast Forward*

I opened our door to see bea at hanggang ngayon tulala parin siya.

"Bei what is your problem? Is there something bothered you?

"Jho I don't have problem. I'm just fine don't mind me nalang muna."

Hindi ko alam kung iniiwasan niya ba ako or what. Iba na siya ngayon simula nung maging tulala siya while thinking something.

"Bei are you sure? I'm here to listen. Bei tell me now your problem." I insist.

"What if I told you that you take up all the space in my brain?"

Anong ibig niyang sabihin. Wait, naguguluhan ako. Sinabi niya bang ako yung iniisip niya o baka nagkamali lang ako.

"Ha? anong ibig mong sabihin?"

"Never mind, kalimutan mo na lang. Hindi naman mahalaga yon"

"Bei narinig ko yun at alam ko ang ibig sabihin. Wag mo akong gawing tanga sabihin mo na sa akin ng diretso."

"Jho ang ibig kong sabihin, layuan mo muna ako for weeks, months, or either years. Leave me alone! I need time alone. And if I'm okay, magiging okay na din tayo. Pero pakiusap ko lang wag mo kong iwan ng tuluyan. Bumalik ka kapag naayos ko na yung sarili ko."

I was surprise by what bea said to me, sinabi niya bang layuan ko muna siya. Seriously lalayuan ko siya. Alam kong mag kaibigan lang kami. Pero nang hindi siya kasama for some days will makes me crazy. And I can't do that.

"I don't get it bei, you don't want me gone but you don't want me with you either."

"Jho just leave me alone! I know what to do. I don't want you here for now."

Para bang gumuho yung lahat ng mga nasa paligid ko nang marinig ko ang sinabi ni bea saken. She really wants me to leave her without knowing why.
She's my best friend, I don't want to leave her now. Pero pinipilit niya.

"Bei something has change in you. I don't know what I've done, but I'll leave you alone just for now if that's what you want. I will be back, I am not quitting. I am not that weak for this friendship. If you ever need me, just call and I'll be there for you. I'm still at your back, susuportahan ka. Kaibigan mo ako at sana wag tumagal tong pagpapaalis mo saken dahil hindi ko kakayanin ng matagal. Mag kaibigan tayo at ayokong mawala ka."

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