we all know what it is.
we all know what will happen. what the effect on others is. what happens when this time you don't wake up.
but yet when you take the blade and take it to your skin it just slips your mind. not caring for the advice you have to others. we give advice yet can't listen to ourselves. we just forget. we forget about the ones who care and are kind. our thoughts overtaken by how hurt we feel.
the first time I broke down im didn't know what was happening. I had gotten through shit for years. why now? and my friend said no matter who you are everyone needs a release and to break down. some cry, others cut, others talk, others smoke, others have music. we all find it somehow. even if we don't know it. just stay strong and remember it isn't worth your own life. I say this because I've just realised how great my life is. yes there is a fucking load of shit but then there are the sports and music I love. the friends that are always here. my girlfriend. hell even the people I hate - they amuse me lol. but it is great. I've done everything iv ever thought of. so for that I am glad. holy shit I sound like an old posh person *shudders*
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I'm out
