Change - (boyxboy)

Epilogue

"Hi Will," a timid voice, trying to sound strong and confident, called from Will's bedroom doorway as Will faced away, eyes focused his laptop in front of him.

Will stiffened, noticing the sound of their voice.

A voice he hadn't heard in so long. Too long.

A voice of someone who had hurt him so much, someone who had scarred his heart more than any other boy ever has.

He'd spent the day at home after spending the night at Ryan's, trying to answer all the questions he'd had running through his mind, because he wasn't sure what he was doing.

He loved Oliver. He loved his so much, and his body, his spirit, his mind called for the blonde like he couldn't believe. He missed the other teen so much, and his body felt cold from not having the blonde's touch, because Oliver was like a fire, bold and intense on Will's system.

But Oliver didn't want anything to do with him, especially after what he'd done. Sure, Oliver hadn't confirmed that things were over, but a sinking part of Will knew that that was how things were going to go. 

And a selfish part of Will knew that he had Ryan to fall back on if he wanted to. And that part really wanted to, awoken by the amazing time he'd spent with the other teen that was reawakening all the dormant feelings he still had, to varying degrees, for his ex-boyfriend. 

But Will knew he couldn't do anything with Ryan. He knew that that wouldn't be fair on him, at all. He'd be using him in exactly the same way that Ryan had said he was, and Will wasn't about to do that to him yet again.

He'd changed.

Ryan had changed.

A lot had changed.

And not a lot of that was good. In fact, a lot of it was bad. He'd fucked over friends, broken people's hearts, messed up families, and was verging on being a self-centred asshole, an ugly truth that Will begrudgingly had to admit to himself.

But Will guessed that that was a part of life, an endless game of checks and balances, making sure that the world stayed at an equilibrium of ups and downs, happiness and sadness, love and heartbreak, hope and despair.

And as he thought back on the last few months, thought of all that had happened, all that had changed since that fateful night where he ended up on Oliver's porch, cursing him out before eventually sleeping with him. All of that, every detail that he could remember, Will put on his mental scale, determining whether what happened was a good thing or not, where it sat on the scale of his life.

But now, hearing that voice, it was as if a heavy stone was dropping in Will's lap and he didn't know where that was going to slot in on the scale, didn't know if the sudden reappearance of the boy behind him was a good thing or a bad thing.

Will wanted answers, but he wasn't sure he'd be happy with whatever explanation he'd receive from the boy in the doorway. But he wouldn't know until he asked, would he? Will reasoned with himself.

He breathed in deep, preparing himself to come face to face with someone he hadn't seen in over a year. Someone he loved so deeply, with his entire heart, only for it to be ripped out and discarded without a single care.

Will turned and made eye contact with his ex-boyfriend. The one who disappeared without a trace, or an explanation, whose parents told Will that he never wanted to speak to him ever again, to never try and contact him or see him. The one who tore Will's hearts to shreds that he spent the whole summer locked in his home, feeling sorry for himself and wallowing to made-for-TV movies.

The one who would always be his first love.

Henry...

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A/N: And that's a wrap on Change! It's been a wild ride, even though it took way longer to write than it should've. I've enjoyed writing every single word of this story and I hope you enjoyed reading it, even if Will is incredibly frustrating. I hope you want to know how things end because I'm also about to post the Prologue of the third (and last) book of the series, Right - which should wrap up Will's adventures. I sure do hope that you'll continue on and finish off this ride with me. It's been real!